We Wish You A Merry Christmas...

Okay, so really its just me here at "A Day in the Life of..." so technically its I wish you a Merry Christmas, which I totally do. I love you guys and hope you have the most fantabulous Christmas EVER!!!
So, this year I get to be home for the holidays which makes me so incredibly happy because I've been gone for the last two. I am so excited to get to sleep in on Christmas morning! I'm so excited to not have to go tracting on Christmas Eve!!!! I'm so excited that I get to actually see my family and not just talk to them on the phone!!!!
So, I'm just going to throw this out there, but what are all y'alls favorite Christmas traditions? What is it that you still do with your families that you've done your whole life? I'm just curious...

May I Have Your Attention Please...

I AM NO LONGER UNEMPLOYED!!!!!!! HOORAY!!! I know, I'm quite excited too! So, I am once again a chicken girl (not too exciting, the deli really isn't my ideal work environment) and then I also got this job up in Provo that is M-F 8AM to noon doing secretarial type stuff. Totally a perfect job for school. So, I will be working two PT jobs and going to school probably full time. Crazy, I know, but it will pay the bills and get me Logan that much sooner!

Possibly craptastically cheesy...

Okay, so its like 2:30AM and I was in the mood to type up some of what I have written, which generally means a small edit before I let all of you fabulous people read it, however, since it is the middle of the night, I have no idea how incredibly cheesy, or stupid this sounds. So, be warned now....the following could be INSANELY cheesy and stupid. Read at your own risk!

Oh, and its the wedding of Luke and Elizabeth...if I wasn't mormon, this is the wedding I would want to have! ENJOY!

I stepped out into the perfect morning and thought about what I had always assumed my wedding day would be like. It was supposed to be this huge production with hundreds of guests that I had never met; everything planned down to the smallest minute detail. The social event of the season. It was not the wedding I had dreamed of. The atmosphere around me now was more what I dreamed of. A quaint church nestled next to a small grove of trees, a brook trickling happily somewhere near by with the birds singing sweetly in the trees.
Our wedding would be out near those woods. I glanced down at my simple- yet elegant- white dress that fell straight to the ground. It had cap sleeves and a neck line that was higher than the fashion of the day, but drew your eyes to my face; which was framed by my long black hair that fell over my shoulders in loose curls that gave it that "beachy waves" look; only a small part of it was pulled up to hold my veil in place. My silver jewelry shone off my olive skin more brilliantly than anything I should have had from Tiffanys. Instead, I wore the tennis bracelet Luke had given me the first time he told me he loved me, and the necklace his mother wore at her wedding. It was a thin silver chain that held an intricately woven ring of silver that twisted and turned elegantly. It reminded me of a dance as it moved in and out and around each other.
I walked away from the church flowers in hand; they were the deepest, richest red roses I had ever seen. This was not the wedding I ever thought I would have; this was the wedding I had dreamed of and wished for all my life.
The small group of our closest family and friends rose as I reached the aisle and walked towards the man of my dreams. He glanced up as I approached and he froze in place, a small smile creeping in the corners of his mouth as he took me in from head to toe. I strengthened the protection charm I had cast on this grove as he reached for my hand and I took it. No one would bother us today. This was my day to forget the life I had left behind.
He looked incredibly handsome in his dark suit and crimson tie. Every time I looked into his eyes I was always taken aback by them. Although today they almost seemed the same color, his left eye had a darker hint of green then his piercing blue right eye. But even then, I could see the adoration and love I had always hoped for in them. This was real, for once in my life I actually got my greatest hope and dream. To see Luke, quite literally the man of my dreams, looking at me adoringly on our wedding day.
The ceremony was simple, and yet sweet. As we exchanged vows, I knew Luke meant every single word he spoke. I knew he would never leave me, and that he would always take care of me. When I spoke those same words he squeezed my hand in response telling me he knew I meant it too. After our vows were said, he slid my wedding band onto my finger, completing my ring which I could not imagine without it now. The two rings flowed together into one ring. Like me and Luke; two halves of the same thing that seemed incomplete without the other. The preacher then pronounced us husband and wife and Luke leaned in to kiss me. I couldn't help but slow down the time around us for a brief moment and savor this just a little bit longer. Luke pulled away and after that look he so often gave me, noticed that no one around us was moving.
"Don't worry, I just slowed time down a little. I wanted this moment to last a little bit longer." I told him as I gently pulled his face back to mine.
"oh, is that all?" He laughed lightly.
"Can you blame me?" I ran my fingers through his loosely curled hair and continued "You better kiss me again so I can speed up time before people notice we aren't moving" I said with a wink, and he kissed me at the same instant I let time start at its normal speed again. Within seconds we were surrounded by our friends and family.

The Freak Out

So, Tuesday I was freaking out because I don't know if I will be in the deli or not because they know I really don't want to work there and they think it will affect my performance. Obviously they forgot the way I work. So, I'm trying to get in at the Provo store which I think would be better all the way around, but I have to wait until next week to find out. Any way, so I was freaking out thinking I didn't have a job or anything and started looking for jobs online at like 11:00PM. I sent out probably 10 or so resumes or applications online. I have an interview for one of them tomorrow up in Provo which would be a good job. It would be from 8AM to noon, so that wouldn't be bad and I could still go to school with that.
Well, Wednesday I decided to go to the temple because I've been meaning to go lately and just haven't pushed myself for the time. So, I went and was trying not to freak out and then I got to the Celestial room and was hit by this huge wave of peace. It was amazing! I love the temple. I so need to make myself go once a week. I mean I really don't know why I can't do it. Its not like I have tons of things occupying my time. Especially right now. So, pray that I will get a job soon! Oh, and it looks like I should get a pell grant for next semester which would be AWESOME!! I hope everything works out for that too!

You know you're doing something right when...

...Everything blows up in your face. I saw this in reference to life. Here I was thinking that everything was going good. Yeah, I got laid off a month or so ago, but I had a job, my car was fixed and things were finally looking up...other than my whole lack of a social life thing...that was still down. But, otherwise, things were going great! And then...I went to work today, and they pulled me into the front conference room. Yep, you guessed it...layoffs....AGAIN. And yep, I got the boot...again. So, what do I do? I pick myself up and go on over to my local neighborhood Maceys and ask Bill if he's got some work for me. He says not really, but he'll see what he can do. Thank goodness I was a good worker last time I was there!
They really don't have any openings, but they are going to bounce me around until something more permanent becomes available. So, its looking like Friday and Saturday nights from 3-11 will be me in the deli and then up front whenever they can fit me in. It stinks, but its a job, and I am grateful for it.
I guess the company I was working for lost like $40 million of contracts in the last couple weeks and they just couldn't afford to keep all the temps that they had, so out with the ax and off with my head! Okay, not really and sorry for any graphic mental images I just gave you.
On a funny note, when I went in to talk to my new boss, Bill, I told him I just got laid off and he said "Why can't people wait until after the holidays? Why do they always do this right before Christmas?" It made me laugh at the time which was good because I was trying really hard not to cry. But, its all good, and I'm employed again and fine. I love how Heavenly Father really is looking out for me!

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And last but not least, a tag from Kar:

1.) Four Places that I go to over and over: Work, School, Home, Centerville
2.) Four People who e-mail me: Rachel, Sis. Stires, Sandy, Cheryl
3.) Four of my favorite Places to Eat: Cafe Rio, Pizza Factory, Red Robin, Wendys
4.) Four Places I would rather be right now: North Carolina, Logan, New Zealand, Tonga
5.) Four People I think will do this tag: ???? I have no idea
6.) Four favorite OLD TV Shows: What constitutes as old? Like more than 5 years? Roswell, Bewitched, Perry Mason (C'mon, you know you watch it when its on!), I Love Lucy, and I don't know...

Okay, and a super quick update on ME...I've got nothing for ya. I went to SLC last weekend with my big brother and his family. That was AWESOME!!! I love the lights! Um, yeah, Thanksgiving ROCKED and I did pretty good on my oral presentation in Spanish! YAY!

Mothers of the Disappeared

For my spanish class I have to do a 5 minute oral presentation on something cultural from a spanish speaking country. Earlier in the semester we had watched a video clip like we do for every chapter. Any way, they showed Las Madres de la Plaza De Mayo which is the Mothers of the Plaza of May, which is a plaza right across the street from the Argentine capital. These women lost their children during the 70s when socialism swept across the country and those who were not in agreement with the government disppeared and were often tortured and murdered. These women went to the capital and marched in protest demanding answers. Any way, the band U2...one of my favorites...wrote a song called "Mothers of the disappeared" and performed it in Santiago, Chile and in this clip, they had some of these mothers come on stage and tell the people who they lost before U2 performed the song. Really interesting. See, I did learn something in school! Any way, check it out...

Conversations with God

Have you ever just realized that you feel truly alone and like no one really cares. I mean obviously your family cares, but you still feel alone, like no one really understands what you are going through? And then have you ever felt the reassurance from someone you can't see with your eyes, but you can feel with your heart? Have you ever felt like someone was right there next to you with their arm around you, or their hands on your shoulders telling you everything is going to be okay?

Lately I have been talking to God like all the time. I don't think He gets annoyed with me. At least if He does, He doesn't say anything. I absolutely love talking to God. I do it all day long because He's always there. Which makes me feel special because although I know He's way busy running worlds without end, He finds time to talk to me.
I was driving back to work the other day and I was listening to the Fray's new song that I have now mentioned in my last 3 blogs, sorry about that, any way, I was listening to it and the first verse goes:

"I found God on the corner of first and Amistad,
where the west was all but won,
All alone, smokin his last cigarette
I said "where you been?"
He said "Ask anything."
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days spent by the telephone,
never rang, all I needed was a call
on the corner of first and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me
You found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you?
Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me
You found me"

Okay, so I heard the first few lines and me being the little sarcastic punk that I can be said "Yeah, Heavenly Father, where were you when everything was falling apart?" referring to my really crappy last couple of months and without hesitation, I had the answer there in my mind. "I was right there next to you every step of the way. I have never left your side. I will always be there for you." It was pretty neat. One of those "WHOA" experiences when you feel like Moses after he saw the burning bush and realize that God not only knows your name, but everything that's going on in your life too...Oh, not to mention He cares about you and the choices you make in your life.

So, like I said, I've been talking to God a lot lately which has been awesome. But I was feeling really unsure about a few things and I wanted to give up on a few things and I just keep feeling like I shouldn't even though everything tells me I should, I feel like God is telling me not to just yet and that the timing isn't right yet. Have you ever felt like that? Like you know what you're supposed to do and as much as you would like to take a step towards it now, the timing isn't right and God tells you "not yet"? That's how I feel right now. For the first time since my mission I have really felt the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost like all the time. Not that I'm a bad person, I just don't live the life of a missionary anymore and so I haven't been constantly asking God if I am on the right street or talking to the right person and all that. I honestly didn't think I would feel the spirit this strong all the time like I have been lately. And at the same time I feel the doubt and depression that satan tries to push on me. Telling me I'm not good enough, I'm not doing enough, I'll never achieve my goals, I'll never be worth anything and if I didn't have God with me, I know I would listen to those other thoughts. I feel like something big is about to happen and it kinda scares me a little bit, but I feel confident that my Father in Heaven will guide me to the correct choice.

Oh, this is gonna be good...

So, Nat tagged me with this tag, and I am a little excited to do it, I'll be honest.

Okay, the first one:

TV Actor: I'm going to have to go with Chad Michael Murray...I love One Tree Hill and not just because its filmed in North Carolina. I think he's so good looking!




My runner up is Milo Ventimiligia who I also saw first on the WB long before Heroes, he was on Gilmore Girls as Jess, and at first I hated his character but in the end, he was the only one I wanted Rory to end up with...and she didn't. I was mad.









For Movie Actor: I picked Daniel Craig...not only can he pull of the fighting and the shooting and the awesomeness that is James Bond, he can also pull off a beard without looking weird. That takes talent sometimes. Plus I love the darker hair with the blue eyes, which he has...

My runner up for that one was Orlando Bloom simply because I thought he was the hottest actor for YEARS and then I went on my mission and came back and I don't know what happened...But he is still pretty! I actually got this poster from my room mate my freshman year of college and it hung on my wall up until my mission, but I do still have it!


Okay, my Classic Actor is: Cary Grant. I love Cary Grant, and think he was pretty good looking back in the day, plus most of his movies are HILARIOUS! One of my all time favorite movies is Arsenic and Old Lace...I just love that movie!




And my runner up is James Dean mostly because he pulled off the faux hawk look long before the faux hawk was popular. You could say he started the trend...


Moving on to Music Artist: None other than Adam Levine from Maroon 5...PRETTY. Plus, did I mention his amazing hair? I mean he has the perfect hair, I often compare how good a guys hair is to his. Even when he shaves most of his hair off he looks good. That is a hard thing to do!

And my runner up is: Jason Wade from Lifehouse. I have mentioned his near perfect hair before too. Jason started out his musical career with longer hair, and I'm really not the biggest fan of guys with longer hair...most of them just can't pull it off.



And last but not least, Opposite Sex Actress: This was a tough one for me...there are a lot of good looking actresses out there, and since I can't judge them by their hair or eyes, it made it more difficult. However, I ended up picking one that I really like and I think she's pretty. I love Reese Witherspoon, so she was my first pick. My best friend Jen once cut her hair like Reese's on Sweet Home Alabama and it looked so cute!

My runner up is Gwenyth Paltrow who I loved in Emma as well as Iron Man. I love her long hair and wish my hair looked that good!


So there you have it, my list of current hotties! Really, this list could be like forever long and I really had to narrow it down which was hard because there are a lot of HOTTIES out there. Maybe I'll update it at some later date!

Oh, PS: Go check out this song from THE FRAY, my FAVORITE band...their new CD comes out for my birthday!!! Its called "You Found Me" and I am totally in love with it!!!

Story Time

"You can lie to me, you can hate me, you can tell me anything you want; but you and I both know its a lie. We both know that nothing will ever truly come between us." The memory was burned into my head; I could still hear Luke's voice as I looked in the mirror and saw the most beautiful bride...a bride that was not about to marry her true love. - Elizabeth

Okay, so when I was waiting for forever in the stupid line to see Twilight on Thursday night-I seriously underestimated how die hard the twi hards are- I had my notebook and pen in hand and this scene for my book just came together. And then today I was listening to the new single from The Fray, who is my favorite band, and another scene came together. Any way, I thought I'd share a little bit from it. Any way, here it is:

The stars gleamed brightly down through the gossamer tents adding a sparkle that could not have been planned better. The meadow was lit by torches all around us whose shadows danced across the ground and left the feeling of centuries past. The silver and midnight blue-my sister's colors of choice- seemed to bring heaven and earth together, tying the moonlight and sky to the ground bringing heaven to us for a moment. I was sitting at a table with my friends admiring my sister, the bride, and her soon to be husband. They looked exquisitely happy, and as I saw them look into each others eyes; you could almost see into the eternity they were starting together. I was happy for Emily, I knew that she would be so happy with Ben...happier than I had any hope of experiencing. I was already betrothed to Joshua Smith. I had no hope of ever finding true love.
Joshua was quite the catch at first glance. If I hadn't known him my whole life, I might think differently of him. People noticed when he walked into a room, with his jet black hair and dark brown eyes that pierced you to the core when he looked at you. He towered over most people standing at 6' 7"; he even towered over me in stilettos which doesn't happen often. We did look good together...really good...a power couple. He almost seemed to expect, if not demand, your respect whether you knew him or not. I preferred a much more subtle presences that was just as, if not more, powerful in its own way. Joshua loved to be feared when I loved to be adored. By now I had lived through 23 years of heads turning whenever I entered a room. I would always catch people doing a double take of me when walking down the street. It was just part of being me. It was the same with Emily, none of us were surprised that she was getting married young, she had just turned 19 a few weeks ago. There was much less expected of her in comparison to me. I was expected to keep the traditions of our family-at any cost.
"Elizabeth....hey...." Kathryn was snapping her fingers in front of my eyes, "Hey chica, come back to us....Joshua is walking this way." Oh great, I thought, just the person I wanted to see...
"Sorry," I said now fully back in reality, "I was just thinking." I was really hoping they wouldn't ask me what had me so distracted. No one knew that I wasn't head over heels in love with Joshua. No one knew I kept dreaming of someone else; someone tall with sandy blonde hair and a very strong build. The only part of his face that I could remember were his eyes...one was green, and one was blue.
"Hey beautiful," Joshua leaned down and kissed my cheek quickly and then sitting beside me taking my hand in his.
"Hey Joshua" I said, trying to hide anything that might seem suspicious from my thoughts might lead to questions I really didn't want to answer. I didn't try to take my hand back, though I really didn't want him holding it. I had learned to just ignore any sign of affection he gave me...it was easier that way.
"Oh, great, perfect timing, Joshua! The dinner is about to start!" Kathryn said enthusiastically. As my father stood to greet everyone to my sister's rehearsal dinner, I looked around to see if I could see anyone I could talk to later to escape my current table. And then I saw him. He hurried in from the back, camera in hand, taking pictures of the front table where the rest of my family sat.
"Who is that?" Kathryn asked, and I watched her gaze follow the photographer as he silently moved to capture every angle. No one at the table had ever seen him, which didn't surprise me because he was, after all, the hired help. We rarely associated with them...we were above that.

A Tag...

This looked like fun, and minimal thinking, so I thought I'd do it, thanks Kar!

TYPE ONLY 1 WORD.


1. Where is your cell phone? Pocket


2. Your significant other? Missing


3. Your hair? Growing


4. Your mother? Nice


5. Your father? Hilarious


6. Your favorite thing? Books


7. Your dream last night? Logan


8. Your favorite drink? Sunkist


9. Your dream/goal? Writer


10. The room you're in? Big


11. Your fear? Snakes


12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Away


13. Where were you last night? School


14. What you're not? Normal


15. Muffins? Chocolate


16. One of your wish list items? camera


17. Where you grew up? Spanish Fork


18. The last thing you did? work


19. What are you wearing? Twilight


20. Your TV? Big


21. Your pet? imaginary


22. Your computer? addiction


23. Your life? BORING


24. Your mood? Content


25. Missing someone? Sure...


26. Your car? WORKS!!!


27. Something you're not wearing? bracelet


28. Favorite Store? Borders


29. Your summer? Fun


30. Your favorite color? Purple


31. When is the last time you laughed? Lunch


32. Last time you cried? Tuesday

FOUR PLACES I GO OVER AND OVER: Work, Maceys, School, Home


FOUR PEOPLE WHO E-MAIL ME: Rachel, Sandy, Jennifer, Sis. Stires

FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS: Pizza, Alfredo, Chocolate, Chicken

Another week in paradise...

Okay, not really a week in paradise...I've just been working this week. Same as always. I haven't talked to cute photographer boy, but we are friends on Facebook, which is also how I found out he has a blog for his photography. He's a good photographer...not that I doubted that before, I just hadn't seen any of his work.
Any way, I'm going to the Twilight midnight showing tomorrow with Fort, its going to be so much fun! I'm excited. Changing the subject completely...I was talking to Jen and Zac the other day and I told them I was going back up to USU because I don't really have a lot of friends here, and most importantly because I feel its what I should do, and Heavenly Father gave me the okay to go. Any way, Zac looked at me like I'd just slapped him in the face and said "Suzy, we are your friends, you can still hang out with us." I guess I could, if I liked awkward situations...okay, it actually isn't awkward around them, they are very cool, especially for being newlyweds and all. But, they are married and I am not and as much fun as it would be, its not helping me out any...unless they invite cute boys over for me to hang out with...but then you get into the whole setting me up thing which I am actually not the biggest fan of....so, I think I will just avoid it all together. So, I said "Yeah, I know we're all friends, but when its a Friday night and I want to go find cute boys, I can't take Jen with me anymore...she's already got her boy...so I'm moving back to Logan" and they agreed that it would probably be a good move for me.

Fun Weekend

So, I went up to Logan this weekend, but I stayed in Centerville on Friday and Saturday nights at a friends house. We went and saw Quantum of Solace on Friday night...it was a way good! Then on Saturday Fort and I went up to Logan. She and I both have a bunch of friends still up there from when we were there freshman year, so we planned on going to the hockey game with them, it was very fun, but dissapointing too because USU got CREAMED by Eastern Washington. It was like 1 to 8....SOOOO sad. And, cute photographer boy was going to try and come, but ended up stuck at the library working on a group project all night...so, Saturday was a little dissapointing, but that's okay. It was fun to hang out with my friends up there any way!

Utah State, hey Aggies all the way!

So, I have this friend that goes to Utah State,his name is Kris. He's like my best friend, we consider each other brother and sister. He has been trying to convince me to go back to USU since I got home from my mission and I keep telling him that God told me no. Here's the funny thing with me and God...He has been known to tell me no at first, and then tell me that is what I should do.
Well, I have been wanting to go back to USU, especially when I went up there for my brother's graduation in the spring. I miss it up there so much! So, I've been thinking about it a lot lately and I was praying about it the other day telling God how much my life really stinks right now and how I have no friends and I really don't like my job. So, I asked Him if I could go to USU next fall because I could live in an apartment with people my age and make new friends and have fun. And He said I could! HOORAY!!! So, the plan is that next fall I will be going back to USU! I am so excited. And this time I will have a car that actually works, and I am probably going to get a job at Maceys next semester and through the summer so I can super save up money to get me on my feet up there! YAY! I am SOO excited!

The Rest of the Story

So sorry this is so stinkin' long, I didn't mean for that to happen, but it's good, I promise!

Should I go talk to him or not? No, I should let him come talk to me, and if he never does than its all good...obviously he's not worth talking to. He is pretty cute, though. I should at least say hi and talk to him for a minute...but I'm such a wimp...no I won't go talk to him...

Okay, so I think I might have blogged about this in minor detail like forever ago. So, I used to work with this girl and she had this dream that I met someone in November and got engaged, and the wedding was supposed to be in February. I laughed. Oh, I laughed hard and told her it would never happen. EVER. Then she said "Hey, isn't your friend getting married in November? Maybe you'll meet him there". I continued to laugh and told her that if that were to ever happen, she'd be the first to know.

Here's a music video from the Fray while you breathe for a minute and don't get sick of my super long story....B, you will appreciate this one:




So, let us fast forward to my friends wedding. Friday night was the dinner, instead of in between the wedding and the reception. It was beautiful. I got there early and was chillin' with Jen's sisters. I'm practically a member of their family, so I was right at home. This guy walks in and he looks like one of Barbie's little sister's boyfriends. NO JOKE. It was kind of funny. So, we were joking about that for a while and I thought he was kind of cute, but nothing beyond that. So Jen and Zac made everyone introduce themselves and say how you know them and what not and this guy is a friend of Zac's and is taking the pictures for him. Oh, and his dad teaches at my old high school, and has taught there for FOREVER. My oldest brother had him for drivers ed.
So, I talk to him for like a minute when he comes around taking pictures of everyone that was there and then I take off to go help finish setting up for the reception at a church up in Provo. So, I go have fun and get home at about 1:00 AM and go straight to bed because I have to get to the temple by 9:30. It shouldn't be hard to get up and be to the temple by 9:30AM, but apparently I am just that special. I woke up at 9:40 AM. The sealing was at 10:00 AM. There was no way I was going to make it. So I get ready really quick because I am not going to miss seeing Jen at the temple. I was pretty much in tears most of the way there. I don't know how I could possibly miss my best friends wedding! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? About half way there, I was thinking about the dream I'd had the night before. I had this dream with Edward from Twilight and Zac Efron in it, and this photographer guy...it was so strange. Any way, I get there and we wait. I'm kinda looking for the photographer because now I want to see him since I had a dream with him in it...he's kinda on my mind now, and I don't see him. I'm pretty sure he's supposed to be there, since he's the photographer and all.
Well, we go out and Jen and Zac come out and there's the photographer. He looked good. He was wearing jeans (hence why he wasn't waiting in the waiting area with the rest of the wedding party) and so we take some pictures and then I head home until the reception. I'm going to skip the boring parts, but pretty much I kinda felt like he was watching me-not in a stalkerish way- but you know how when someone notices you, but they don't want you to notice them noticing you? Yeah, that kind of thing. So, the whole reception I am trying to decide if I should go talk to him. B thinks he has the chicken voice bad...ha ha ha, I don't do well talking to guys I think are cute. So, I was standing there and he comes up and is like "So, what are you up to?" and I ask "What do you mean?" And he says "School, work, what are you up to?" and that was the begining of our conversation that lasted quite a while...I don't even really know how long we stood there talking, but it was awhile. He goes to USU (My other most favorite place EVER!) and has been home from his mission for about a year and a half. And the reason he wasn't in the temple was because he forgot his reccomend in Logan, so he couldn't go. So I still felt bad, but not as bad knowing that I wasn't the only one who had to miss it. He seems like a way cool guy.
So, after our conversation a couple of my friends who were helping in the kitchen come up to me and say "Ooooh! We saw you talking to cute photographer boy! That's it, you are going to catch Jen's boquet and you're going to marry him!" and I laughed because that's what I do when people say impossible things to me. and I said "Yeah right. Its not going to happen" and I walked away.

Pause and watch this lovely video before you want to shoot me for writing a freaking novel!


Let us fast forward to the end of the reception, Jen is going to throw the boquet, and to make it more fair she's throwing it off the balcony down to us single girls down below. Yeah, it came right at me, I couldn't help but catch it. So, I caught the boquet which started a whole new round of taunts that I was going to marry this guy I just barely met. It will be interesting to see what happens, I guess.
Oh, BTW, I'm going up to Logan to hang out with him this weekend. Me and Fort have needed a good excuse to go up, so I'm going to go hang out with cute photographer boy!

My Best Friends Wedding, Part 2

Okay, so I posted about a month ago about my best friend Craig getting married, well my other best friend got married yesterday. I was one of the bridesmaids, and it was really a lot of fun! Here are some pictures:


The Bride and Groom, Jen and Zac
Here are the other Bridesmaids..I didn't actually get a good shot of me...their photographer did though, so maybe one day I will let you see what I looked like...I looked good, BTW. Here is cute Denise

And then Natalie


And Melanie. I was the only one not actually related to Jen, although we have convinced many people on many occasions that we are sisters


And here is me and Jen. We have been BFF since high school, so like 7 years now, and this is the 2nd picture we have ever taken of the two of us...crazy, huh!



I took this picture when people were out decorating the car, so obviously we were not involved in the mayhem that occured

If you couldn't tell from our bridesmaid outfits, Jen's colors were black and hot pink, so Jen opted to show her colors by wearing really cute hot pink shoes:

She had some hot pink high heels too, but they got quite uncomfortable fast, so she got these too.
This is Jen and the cute photographer, chillin




Here is Jen's reaction to the car's new "decorations"

Here is a few pics of the car:

Finally a good news Wednesday!!

So, the last three Wednesdays have been less than pleasant, but thank goodness that today was really quite a fabulous day! I went to work and had TONS to do, which was GREAT! And then I got an e-mail from the girls at the other plant and they wanted me to stop by, so I did and they told me that the other plant went to a 32 hour work week, so if I hadn't switched plants I'd only be getting 32 hours a week! Ouch! So, I am grateful I have a good job!
Then, I went to class today and didn't completely fail my history test I had last week! YAY! I mean I got like a B-, C+ on it, but that is TONS better than the F I thought I was getting! AND then on top of that, I thought I was going to have to try and squeeze a quiz for history in there too, but my teacher told us today that there is no quiz at the testing center! YAY!!!! Which means I just have my test in Spanish tomorrow and then its Jen's wedding this weekend! YAY! Its going to be a busy, but fun weekend. I will try and take a ton of pictures for y'all and include them on here!

And for your viewing pleasure, the music video for Paramore's new song for Twilight, its called Decode. I think its a pretty good song! Check it out!

Paramore - New Music - More Music Videos

High School Musical Weekend

You know, my brother B has gotten me into a lot of things. Like Smashing Pumpkins...didn't like them until he introduced me to their music, now they are one of the favs. Um, lets see, what else...U2, superhero shows like Heroes, Smallville, stuff like that. Well there's a lot of them and when I first got home from my mission one of the first things he made me do was watch the movie High School Musical. I didn't really think it was all that cool at the time, but I have since watched it again, as well as the second and third one and I have to say, they aren't all that bad. In fact, I dare say that I like them. Any way, so I went to see High School Musical 3 with my niece and it was tons of fun. I fell in love with one of the songs and it has been put on the rather long list of songs that will be played at my wedding reception. Here it is:



I love how dramatic everything is in those movies. Like when Gabriella decides to quit at the country club in HSM 2 and she's breaking up with Troy...my favorite part of that song is when Troy comes running after her and is like almost crying because she's not going to be working there anymore...ha ha ha, its really funny because they work in the same town as they live, so its not like they'll never see each other again. Any way, here is that song:



However, my absolute most favorite parts to laugh at are the super teen angsty songs brought to us by Zac Efron in both HSM 2 and 3...check out his awesome teen angst dance moves from HSM 2:



So yeah, if you haven't checked them out, its worth the laughs. They really are quite funny. Nothing like actual high school...at least none that I've heard of.

Back to Life

Okay, so, I get my car back today!!! HOORAY!!!! Not that I don't love my sister's car, its just not mine. I will miss the zip that little stratus has in comparison to my big 1992 Dodge spirit. At least its got SPIRIT....ha ha ha, that was really lame...sorry.
SO, have I mentioned how much I hate Wednesdays and how the most horrible things happen to me on them? So, last week was the whole car fiasco which caused me to miss my Wednesday night class, which had I gone to, I would have remembered we had a test yesterday...BEFORE I got to class and realized I hadn't really studied for it. OUCH! I think I did okay on it...we will see!
Random story for you, I went to work today and this guy comes into my office and tells me he has a question for me. I don't really know him, so I assume it was work related. He's like "My daughter is going to a cosmetology school here in town and needs someone to do a weave on today at 1:00, you interested?" and I'm like "Sure" so, I go in at 1 and got my hair highlighted. I did an auburn color with some blonde. Its subtle, and cute! YAY! It was pretty cool. I'll post pics after my class tonight, although I don't really know if you will even be able to tell, so we will see!
Any way, there is an update on my real life...its not so crazy/depressing like it has been the last couple of weeks, thank goodness! I don't know how much more I can handle!

Meet Joshua

"He was down on one knee before I had time to think. With ring in hand he asked me the one question I was not prepared to answer. "Elizabeth, I have loved you my whole life. Please, don't leave me now. Please tell me you'll be my wife." Darn it! I knew this was coming. I knew it. Part of me wanted to say yes and keep my family, and essentially my world as I knew it, calm and peaceful. I think I could be happy with him...maybe. But that little voice in my head; the one that told me to stop and help Luke, the one that told me to not let Luke go in the first place was screaming in the back of my mind. What would happen now if I didn't heed its call?" - Elizabeth

Okay, so you are probably sick of my stories and characters, but its my blog and my life is too depressing and boring to blog about right now, so you get stories!!! HOORAY!!! I knew you were really excited, deep down inside.
So, Joshua Jones is tall with jet black hair, hazel eyes (always changing...just like him, but not in a good way) he is VERY arrogant. He only ever gets the finest and the best of everything. His father is the head of their community of witches, and he is destined to take over when his father sees him as being ready. He is madly in love with Elizabeth...that part of him is true. But part of his reason for wanting to marry her is because she would look good with him, and she is the most powerful of all the witches, so he wants her power too. Its probably more of a lust than a love type thing for him. I mean Elizabeth is hot, and he's not stupid. In fact, he's really really really smart. And he can play the crowds really well, that's why everyone likes him. That's why Elizabeth thinks she's in love with him. And that's why she agrees to marry him. So, Meet Joshua

Meet Kathryn

"There we stood, across the room from each other. I could see the fire in her eyes and felt the rage in my own body rising. How had this happened? How could this truly be? Once we were best friends, and now it seemed we were doomed to be worst enemies. "-Elizabeth

So, I was going to name the best friend Katelyn and then decided to go back to the original name of Kathryn because all the characters in the witches world have classic old school names (Elizabeth, Kathryn, Joshua, Hannah) So, Katelyn is a fabulous name, and one that I really love, but Kathryn fits a little bit better. Plus, I have a niece named Katelyn and since Katelyn becomes a bad guy I didn't want my niece to get a bad example from her name...even though it was her name first... any way, Meet Kathryn. She is average height with medium length curly blonde hair. She is from one of the 6 main families in the story. Elizabeth is from one, as is Joshua (who you will meet in the next post). Kathryn and Elizabeth grew up down the street from each other, and are best friends. They do everything together, that is until Elizabeth falls head over heels in love with a boy that is not like them...he's normal. At first she can't understand the draw, but as she gets to know this boy she falls in love with him too.
In the begining she is a very kind hearted person...to an extent. She feels very much superior to others and doesn't see why Elizabeth can't see that. She spends all her time thinking of herself first and others if she remembers to think about it (which doesn't happen very often) she is jealous of Elizabeth's natural gift at "witchcraft" (not typical witchcraft...I'll have to explain it sometime) and Kathryn's greatest desire (especially after Elizabeth and Luke meet) is to be Elizabeth.
You may ask yourself how Kathryn could turn into a bad guy...or maybe not. But, its her lust for Luke that cause her to cast a love spell over him when Elizabeth breaks up with him over family issues. See, now I'm getting way ahead of myself because so much really needs to be explained about their world, but pretty much she casts a spell she knows she shouldn't and makes Luke think he's in love with her, when he's not. So, she becomes a bad person and ends up hating Elizabeth for it.
So, there you go. Next time...Joshua

Meet Luke

"I knelt beside the unmoving body and gently rolled him so I could see his face. There was a deep gash across one of his cheeks and his face was already swollen. Despite the many injuries he had aquired, I could tell he had a very pleasant face and I knew deep inside me that if I let him die it would haunt me forever. I knelt and quickly thought the words I needed and repeated them in my mind hoping it would be enough to save him. When I finally opened my eyes, I could see that the bruises had started to heal and the gash was gone. 'Excellent' I thought to myself. I had healed him enough to keep him alive, but he still had enough injuries to not think I had anything to do with his healing. He opened his eyes and looked at me. He tried to speak, but I shushed him, "Its alright. You're going to be okay. I need to get you to a hospital." I pulled out my phone and dialed 9-1-1..." - Elizabeth

Okay, so this is how Elizabeth meets Luke. Luke is a really cool guy. He's probably one of my most favorite people because he's not like a lot of the other guys I write about. He's very athletic. He likes skate boarding, snowboarding, surfing...pretty much if it involves a board and nature he's there. He has a faux hawk...heck yeah. I like Luke because he's confident and persistent (hence why he got beat up by a bunch of punks...he didn't back down, even though he probably should have and it almost cost him his life. Good thing Elizabeth was around...) He can generally hold his own unless he is greatly outnumbered (like on that particular night). He plays soccer on his college's team and is pretty good. He doesn't let things go very easily, so when he doesn't understand something it bugs him until he figures it out, which is why he is so curious about Elizabeth..this amazingly beautiful girl who saved his life and then tries to avoid him at all costs afterwards. Its not the norm, so it bugs him until he figures it out.
He lives with two other guys in a two bedroom apartment just off campus (so he can skateboard to school every day). He doesn't know what he wants to be when he grows up because he would rather play sports and all that as a hobbie, not a career. But he doesn't know what else he would want to do. Another thing that intrigues him about Elizabeth...she knows exactly what she wants out of life and is like a steam engine working towards that goal. He works full time at a movie theater as a manager. His dad left when he was a kid and his mom worked two or three jobs most of his life to keep the family (he and his two brothers) afloat. They have always been really close, and he talks to his mom about everything...including Elizabeth. So, there is a quick look at Luke! What do you think? Next time...Kathryn.

Meet Elizabeth

"I knew that if anyone really was following me...that was stupid of them. It was incredibly dark as the clouds covered the perfect full moon. I walked quickly towards my car so I could get home before something bad happened. I had the feeling all day long that something was going to happen. I hated that feeling. I rounded the corner just a few feet away from my car and saw something strewn across the sidewalk. It didn't move. As I approached I saw that it was a person...an unconscious person. I walked past him at first, but something compelled me to stop and make sure he was alright..." -Elizabeth

Okay, so I have been thinking a lot about this new story I posted about...yeah, I'm very much intrigued by it. So, the main character is Elizabeth, a tall and slender girl with long black hair, an olive complexion, and green eyes (No, B, they aren't very fierce...I know you're going to ask). She is very beautiful (of course...she's a witch!) and she is very musically inclined. She sings amazingly, and can play a whole bunch of musical instruments, the guitar being her favorite. She grew up having everything she ever wanted. She has a sister that she doesn't really get along with. Her mom used to be her best friend, but ever since high school they have had issues. Her dad isn't around a ton. They used to be close, but again, high school changed everything. She goes to college on the east coast somewhere and lives in an awesome apartment that is about the same square footage as my parents current home. Her parents want her to marry ______, who is a nice guy, but really arrogant (like most of their society is). Until high school, Elizabeth was as much a part of their world as the rest of them, but something changed and she saw the world in a different life. The story begins here with her, how she is trying to figure out where she fits in life and what she wants to do. And then, she meets Luke...but I will post about him next time!

Explanation

I sighed and tried to think of what else might possibly go wrong and just brace myself for it to happen. I figured if I was prepared for all horrible possibilities than nothing else can surprise me.

Okay, I feel I must explain a little bit. So, last week at work they laid off 34 people. This was not a terrible surprise to me, only that I was involved. They pulled me in and told me that I was supposed to be one of the 34, but they didn't want to lose me, so they had arranged for me to work at the plant next door until sales went up and they could afford to bring me back. It was the weirdest feeling in the world! Part of me was freaking out because I had been laid off, and at the same time I felt at peace because I knew that I had a job still.
I have since started working at the other plant and it is a lot of fun. There are a lot more people there than at the plant I was working in. So, things were all fine and good until Wednesday when we took my car in because it has been heating up like WAY bad, just from driving around town. Yeah, we were hoping it was just a fan...but alas that would not be my luck. Nope, it was the head gasket...so, I am without my car for the rest of the week and it has been a pain. Fortunately, God has blessed me with an amazing sister who happens to have a car lying around not being driven. She is wonderful and has let me borrow it until I get my car back. Thank Heavens! I hate not having a car! It is most annoying.
And then, if all this wasn't enough, I had to go to the dentist and they did four fillings on my top front teeth...PAINFUL! Oh my gosh my mouth is still sore...two days later. And so, they wanted me to come in ASAP and get 3 crowns put on some other teeth...so they set up the appointment for Wednesday and I am thinking its NEXT Wednesday. I told them I would have to change it because I didn't know what my schedule would be like (I went in on my first day at the new plant)...yeah, they meant THIS Wednesday. They didn't even give me 24 hours to cancel it! I was so irritated with them! Plus, we don't even know if I really even need the 3 crowns they want to put on! I really really can't afford to have any more dental work than is absolutely necessary. So yeah...they are punks and my life sucks for a minute, any way. But, its all good because once you hit the bottom, you can only go up from there. Now the question is...when will I hit the bottom?

Life of A Salesman (Yellowcard)

This Wednesday had been another bad mid week day for me...first with the lay off last week and the car issues this week...I needed a pick me up....

While trying to decide what type of mood I was in, I came across the funniest thing ever on someone's facebook!
Oh, PS: I do have a job, its just at the other Klune plant right now...they laid me off, but didn't want to really get rid of me, so I work for the bigger better plant right now!

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, MP3 Player, or whatever on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
I Wanna Be Bad (Willa Ford) [ha ha, that’s right, don’t mess with me!]

How would you describe yourself?
The Good Kind (The Wreckers) [See, I CAN be good!]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Kiwi (Maroon 5) [I’m going to opt for Kiwi like a New Zealand native, or maybe someone that has a kiwi bird for a pet…]

How do you feel today?
Photograph (Nickleback) [Yeah, you could take a picture of me today, but I doubt I’ll forget today despite proof.]

What is your life’s purpose?

So What Does It All Mean? (West, Gould, and Fitzgerald) [no comment]

What is your motto?

Thank Goodness (From Wicked) [Need I say more?]

What do your friends think of you?
Won’t Go Home Without You (Maroon 5) [Oh, that’s sweet…apparently they know I won’t ditch them]

What do you think of your parents?
All in All (Lifehouse) [all in all, they’re pretty cool…]

What do you think about most often?
Say(All I need) – (One Republic) [I do talk a lot in my head…and in general]

What is 2 + 2?
Crazy (Dave Matthews Band) [seriously, that is CRAZY!]

What do you think of your best friend?
Ghosr of You (Good Charlotte) [SO TRUE!!! Its like my best friend IS a ghost!]

What do you think of the person you like?
Sugar, We’re Goin Down (Fall Out Boy) [This could be taken a number of ways…]

What is your life story?
Beautiful, Wonderful (Smashing Pumpkins) [I don’t know if that is the exact title of the song, but the chorus is ‘Beautiful, you’re beautiful’ and later it goes ‘wonderful, you’re wonderful’…B, what song is it, since you’re my all knowing SP source…]

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Invincible (OK Go) [Ha ha ha…seriously]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Battle (Colbie Caillat) [sort of…it’s a battle in my head because I’m too chicken to talk to him…]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
In This World (Murder) – (Good Charlotte) [I hope not! This song is about abortion!]

What will they play at your funeral?
Always On My Mind (Michael Buble) [Yep, EVERYONE will remember me when I die]

What is your hobby/interest?
Space Between (Dave Matthews Band) [interesting…]

What is your biggest fear?
Let Go (Dave Lichens) [that is a scary thought…letting go…]

What is your biggest secret?
Gifts and Curses (Yellowcard) [ha ha ha]

What do you think of your friends?
Catalyst (Anna Nalick) [Ok…weird]

What will you post this as?

Life of A Salesman (Yellowcard) [And I bet you were all wondering what I was going to talk about today!]

Not to bad, what do you think?

Overdue (The Get up Kids) [Yep, this ending was a little overdue…thanks for stickin with me!]

An Epiphany ...

I looked around me, at the world I had grown up knowing...it was not what I truly wanted. And then he walked by, taking my hand in his and leading me outside. This simple act seemed so much more significant to me than it ever would be to him...he was taking me away from the world I knew and into one that I loved, and wanted to be a part of..." -Elizabeth

Okay, so I was sitting in my history class a number of weeks ago and we were talking about the Salem witch trials, and of course I knew I wanted to write a story about it and about a girl that is accused of being a witch! Well, the thought kinda grew a little bit, but didn't go super far and then it got lost in the back of my mind as I continued to work on my book. So, last week I was at work (which was so many kinds of horrible, but that is topic for another time!) And I decided that I liked the idea of a story about a witch, but its not like your typical magic story. See, witches are part of every day life, sort of. If a witch walked by you wouldn't notice her by her appearance. They are part of this super high class society that has "everything" money, fame, fortune, and magic. They don't have wands, they don't have to cast spells to make things happen, and you have to be born with it. Another thing is, there is a delicate balance...everyone has an opposite. Its very much like a yin and yang thing, and it MUST be kept in balance. You can choose to not live the lifestyle of the witches (there are 4 main families), but you will be disowned. You will still have your magical abilities, but you're lucky if you make it out alive. Thus we find Elizabeth. She's a witch, and she falls in love with a skater boy. He's not part of her world, and she has to choose. And then she finds out her best friend Kathryn is a witch too, and her opposite, which causes huge conflict because more than likely one of them is going to be good, and the other evil. I have a bunch of other ideas with this story, but that's the main gist of it...what do you think?

Girls just want to have fun

I walked into the office, much like I did every day on my way out to go home. They were laughing as I stuck my head in. "See ya!" I said. "Hey, so you're going to go 'party' tonight, huh?" Lisa said, suppressing a smile. "Yeah, it's Denise's birthday tomorrow, and since Jen is getting married soon we figured have a great party at my house!" I said, as if having a party was normal, because to me...it is. "Yeah, but how much of a party are you really going to have without any alcohol?" I rolled my eyes, "Silly, you don't need alcohol to have a good time..."

Okay, one thing you have to understand is that I work with a lot of people that go drinking on the weekends...or after work...or whenever they can. I started working there like 3 weeks after my mission. Lets just say that they don't even call me Molly Mormon anymore...apparently you don't have to say it, its just strongly implied in my actions. Ha ha...and I don't think I'm as Molly Mormon as I should be.
Well, Denise did turn 21 and so she can now legally drink alcohol, but as is obviously mentioned, we don't drink in my group of friends. So, we bought some root beer in the bottles and some sparkling cider and had a good old time...check it out:


This is Kim, Denise, Jen, and Natalie...we really weren't trying to make it look like alcohol so much, but it kinda does, but I swear it was just root beer!
Jen holding her "Congrats" donut. We called this her "Goodbye to single life" party, and it lasted until midnight to which the party switched over to Denise's Happy Birthday party...so much fun. Here is Denise with her donut!

Isn't she so cute? It was a lot of fun, and the root beer we got was SUPER foamy, so when the last girl opened her first one of the night, we filmed it to see if it would spill all over her. Check it out:

I'm a Bella?!?!?!?! Are you for real?

Okay, what the heck?!?! I don't think I'm like Bella, but apparently I am according to this quiz I got from Kar's post:



Take the Quiz and Share Your Results!

You are observant, diplomatic and often aim to please. You are unaware of your

attractiveness and despite being uncomfortable with any form of attention, people enjoy your company. You can be impatient, stubborn and headstrong, but you are true to your word and mature for your age, often taking care of your family and enjoying a good book over chatting with girlfriends on the phone.


Okay...for one...I like attention. I think it just comes with being the youngest. I have no problem speaking in front of large amounts of people. I make a fool of myself at work all the time and there's lots of people there...although that generally isn't intentional...
Hmmm...I am addicted to books and hate the phone, so that is true...Any way...

Random story for y'all: This girl I don't generally get along with at work decided that I need to date this new guy at work. He's an engineer that graduated from BYU...he's a hardcore die hard fan, like all the way BYU fan. I've met few like him. And since he's obviously LDS she decided that we needed to date because apparently that makes him my type. Yeah, No. I don't think so. Of course now he talks to me, and he seems like a pretty cool guy. I decided that if he does ask me out I won't say no. So, we'll see where this goes and I'll keep you updated. It was funny because today he was like "So, you're a big Utah State fan, huh" because I was wearing my USU hoodie at work the other day. Ha ha ha...that was funny. I was like "Yeah, I went to school there my freshman year and loved it. Its a great school" It made me laugh because I know how die hard of a fan he is....oh, it was entertaining.

My Best Friends Wedding

I looked at my watch...again, and then at the line. Why oh why was my stupid best friend so popular that the line would be this long at his wedding reception? Is it bad to want to ditch your best friends wedding? People weren't moving! Why where they talking? Its not like we really want to talk to the bride and groom on their big day...okay, maybe most people do. Another step forward...that's progress...just another thousand left and I can get this stupid awkward moment over with and on with my life....

I guess I could have posted about this before I posted about the institute dance, since I went to my best friends wedding and then the dance, but I forgot.
So, I have a story for you all. Lets all go back about 7 years, okay? Ok...so, its like my first week working at Maceys as a bagger. I'm 16 and its my first job. My brother Richard works there too, but at this point in our lives he didn't like to acknowledge that I was his relative, let alone his little sister. So, I'm on my own in the "getting to know people" department, and suprisingly I am shy when I don't know anyone.
Well, the summer was ending and school had started and I was bagging one night and this guy worked that same shift as I did (along with like 10 other kids, but he is critical to the story) so, I notice his name tag says Craig. So, I start talking to him, and he's pretty cute. He's from my rival high school which is why I had never seen him before. We started talking and pretty much from that moment on I had the biggest crush on him. It was the begining of our really great friendship.
I also started hanging out with this girl named Jen who also knew Craig and the three of us started hanging out when Craig's crazy girlfriend broke up with him. We were always working together and hanging out when we weren't working. It was the best! Except that I was in love with Craig, and so was Jen, and Craig wasn't in love with either of us but still wanted to be friends. It gets a little complicated and I'm not going to go into details too much, but lets just say I know a little bit about unrequited love. So, we are still friends and me and Craig still talk like ALL THE TIME. He is seriously my best friend. Jen has issues with him and kind of fades a little bit (and I honestly can't blame her).
Graduation comes and goes for us and Craig goes on his mission. I go to Logan and end up hanging out with his girlfriend from before his mission. A lot of things happened there that formed a lot of opinions about Craig, his girlfriend, and why I still couldn't get over him. So, Craig comes home from his mission and starts dating his girlfriend again for a little bit, and then they break up. So I'm thinking this is my chance, and we hang out a little bit, but still nothing happens.
Then, God tells me to go on a mission and Craig wrote me a few times, but we're still definitely in the friends category. His ex-girlfriend went on a mission too at the same time...his ex that he never got over. So, I'm thinking that I get home a few months before her...totally enough time to win him over and then she'll come back and it'll be too late. Yeah, didn't happen like that.
I got home from my mission and he and I went on a date...I think? I still don't know what that was...but I'm sick of liking him. Its been 7 LONG years, and its not like I haven't tried to get over him...I have...with no success. And then one morning I woke up and was listening to Good Charlotte and realized that Craig hates Good Charlotte, and actually hates like everything that I do. We'd be miserable together! And then it was like *BAM* I was over him! YAY! Which ended up being a really good thing because said ex-girlfriend came back and they were engaged about 2 or 3 months later and got married last Friday.
Really long explanation, sorry, hope you're still here reading because now to the point: I used to be able to talk to Craig about anything and everything. I feel like I lost my best friend. And it sucked at his wedding because he told me how we totally needed to stay in touch and he still wanted to know what was going on with me.....yeah...no. I don't think so. I guess I'm weird that way...the whole he's married thing...I can't get past that. Plus, its not like we've even kept in touch since before this summer. So, it was WEIRD to say the least. But, its all good because I really am over him and that was the greatest feeling when I went to the reception....not wishing it was me. I was, and still am, happy for them. I wish them every happiness in the world.

Shall We Dance?

The music pumped out a quick beat that was easy to dance to...the room felt like Raleigh in the heat of August just after a rainstorm. I looked around at all the people squished together around me like we were sardines. Then I saw him...again. I had seen him several times that night, he was tall, and had great brown eyes. He pulled off the preppie look well, especially with his faux-hawk. Just then, as luck would have it a slow song started. Our eyes met and he walked towards me....and then he walked past me and asked the girl behind me to dance.

Okay...so I have seen the above done before. I kinda like it... a little blip from my own head at a moment in my real life. I'll see if I like it enough to continue...
Any way...back to the real subject of today...Institute dances. I know that you are DYING to know how it went. Even if most of you didn't know I even went to a dance on Friday night. Well, I remembered why I kind of have issues with them these days. I feel kind of old. I know, I know, I'm not old, I'm only 23, but all the guys there seem like they either haven't gone on their missions yet, or are just back from them. So, all the guys are past my 1 1/2 year limit I have set. (I won't date a guy more than a year and a half younger than me.)
And, I am SUPER self concious about my dancing. I feel like an idiot a lot of times, like I can't dance (because I truly believe that I can't dance). So, now there really is no point for me to go to the institute dances.
It was okay. I mean I danced with a few guys that were pretty cute. But no guys I'd want to date, and really, that's the reason they have those dances. But, over all it was fun. I probably won't go to another one unless I am REALLY bored...but probably not.

Randomness

Amy got me with this one. So, y'all want to know 7 random things about me, eh? Well...where to begin...

#1: I was afraid of the dark until I was 15 years old. Yep, night time scared me to death. I was afraid Mr. Boogety, or something similar would come get me. And people wonder why I hate scary movies... I remember one of my first weeks in college B told me like the whole plot to a pretty scary movie, and I couldn't sleep at all that night; and I didn't even watch it! Yeah, I have a VERY active imagination. Fortunately night time doesn't freak me out as bad, but I still don't like dark places. I am a lover of light.

#2: As a kid I always wanted to be a dancer. Unfortunately for me, I have the build of a football player, so that career option was out before it was ever a real possibility. I still dream about being a dancer sometimes, but I have zero coordination, so that wouldn't really work, would it...

#3: I dream almost every night. I guess a lot of people don't dream every night and remember it. Almost every morning on my mission I would wake up and after praying I would say, "Holy cow I had the weirdest dream last night" I would write letters to my friends and they'd write back wanting to know about my dreams. My companions still ask me if I am dreaming nightly, and I still do. Last night I dreamed that I was supposed to go on this blind date with this really attractive guy, but I ended up not going because I was a secret agent and I had to go chase this bad guy and we ended up in this alley and the guy shot me and I woke up....crazy, huh.

#4: I own a Twilight shirt. It says "Cullen 13" on the back. Me and Fort both have them. Mine is brown and hers is blue. We are going to wear them when we go see the movie...maybe. It depends on how brave we actually feel like being that day. I am generally the one making fun of people who do that, so I don't know if we will or not.

#5: The only time I don't talk is when I'm not comfortable...or really really tired. I am a talker, as you all know. At work when I started I didn't talk for a while and they told me recently they had no idea I was such a talker because I was so darn quiet!

#6: I carry a notebook with me at all times. Some of you already knew this, but I always, always, ALWAYS have a notebook with me in case I get an epiphany or something about a story idea, or a scene for my book. Comes in handy when I'm in the middle of History trying to stay awake and a thought hits me like a brick wall.

#7: I am in love with a fictional character of my own imagining. His name is Jason Tyde. I posted the beginning of his story a few days ago. He is a pretty amazing guy and no one will ever know that quite like me....to bad he is FICTIONAL... dang.

Okay, now its time for the lucky winners! I am going to tag B, Nat, and Kar-if y'all want to. I won't be offended if you don't want to!!

TAG!! I'm it!

Well, Kar tagged me with this one, here:

"This blog invests and believes, the proximity. [meaning, that blogging makes us 'close' -being close through proxy]. They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize, and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut, or that they propagate? Then let’s try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers that in turn must make the same thing and put this text."

And everyone seems to translate the translation, and I liked Nat's the best about all the coolness...go check it out. And, since I don't really know a ton of people in the blogosphere out here, I'm just going to talk about y'all and why I think you're cool!

B: Okay, so I give major props to B for even having a blog, and also because his blogs are random and make me laugh like all the time!

Nat: I love her blogs about life as a mom with four kids. I especially like Nat's blog because I live far away and I feel more connected with their fam through her blog!

Amy: Has been my sister-in-law the longest and I feel that we are pretty tight. I love her blog because she has the neatest stories about her kids and the funny/random things they do!

Kar: I love how she writes about life. Everything is an adventure, even if you never leave the house! That is an amazing thing to do, make EVERYTHING interesting.

Kelly: Is just cool, all the way around, and she has the funniest videos of Jack, who is one of the funniest/cutest little boys! (disclaimer: I am not picking favorites, I love all my neices and nephews equally)

And, anyone else I might have missed, you ROCK and I love your blog too. So, now everyone can feel all cool and what not. I know, I'm totally ditching out on the tagging other people, but y'all pretty much have already gotten this one!

Another little bite

Here is another little bit of my story...I'll leave it up for a bit, and if you happen to miss it, just let me know and I'll get it to you! ENJOY!! PS: This is Jason's beginning...the story flips between his and Kyla's point of view...its pretty cool...

If the sun hadn’t been so bright at noon, I could have slept all day. I wanted to. I hated my life, I hated everything about it. Everything I had worked for had been ripped from my hands. Stupid women…nothing but trouble. Every girl I’d ever known had caused me grief in one way or another. I couldn’t stand the sun in my face any longer. I rolled out of bed and saw my phone on the dresser across the room, with the little red light flashing. Great, I thought, $20 says it’s the lawyers…again. This whole divorce was giving me a constant migraine. I flipped my phone open…yep, I was right. Of my five missed calls, three were from the lawyers, and the other two were from my assistant down in LA. I was trying hard to avoid her, but she was persistent. Pretty soon she’d be having my agent calling, and I really didn’t want to talk to Phil.

Just then, my phone went off again. Fabulous, just the person I didn’t want to talk to. “Hey Phil” I said trying not to let the annoyance come through in my voice just yet. “Jason, where are you? You were supposed to be in LA two hours ago! Do you have any idea what time it is?!?!?!” Obviously I didn’t…either that or I didn’t care because I was obviously still in Sumerland at my beach house avoiding the world. I was doing a pretty good job at it too. I finally glanced at the clock to see what the exact time was. “Well Phil, its about 12:26 PM, and I’m guessing this isn’t just a social call.” I guess I should be nicer…I mean I’m pretty sure one of these days Phil is going to have a heart attack and it will probably be my fault. We both knew that I was supposed to be in LA right now, and we both also knew I wasn’t going to make it. “Jason, these meetings are important. If you want more work, you have to meet with these directors and producers so they can give you work…you’re not here, you don’t get work.” He tried to sound nice, maybe even respectful. “Well maybe I don’t want to work anymore. Maybe I want to just stay here in Summerland and live out the rest of my life in peace and quiet.” I was walking over to the medicine cabinet and pulled out a little orange bottle and dropped a couple of Zantex into the palm of my hand. I really hated relying on these stupid little pills to get me through the day, but without them I was useless. Nothing seemed to phase me these days.

Any way...let me know what you think...

I think I've lost my mind

Okay, so the WEIRDEST thing of my life happened to me yesterday and I thought I would share it with y'all... so I work at a plant (a foundry, really, but I have found a lot of people don't really know what a foundry is) and its out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by fields, and about a mile away is another plant owned by the same company. So, it can be a little freaky around the plant sometimes because its got huge ceilings and not a ton of light everywhere. Perfect for a "crazy murderer hunting you down" type scene, and I have visualized many different scenarios in my head for a future story that I will work on eventually. So, I was at work yesterday and I was at the copy machine that looks down a hall way that has all the main offices down it, and people were walking down the hall and I saw this cute little girl run down the hall and into Jared's office. I didn't think much of it, I figured maybe it was Jared's kid or something, I didn't know. So, I walk back to my office and I look into Jared's, and its just him sitting at his computer. I glanced around and was half tempted to walk into the room to see her, but she wasn't there. There was no little girl running down the hall...I was the only one that saw her. FREAKY!!!!!!!!!!!
I often feel like I am going a little crazy there because I often think I see things out of the corner of my eye, and that is creepy enough, but this was me looking straight on down the hall, and she was there...only she wasn't. It was weird.