The joys of FINALS!!!!!

I had to take a break...I just had to! I can't look at another word in Spanish (until my study group at 5:30) or another stupid definition of biology! I can't wait until tomorrow when I will be DONE with those two classes!!! Pass or fail, I DON'T CARE, I will be FREE for almost 4 whole months before I get to go back to the wonderful halls of Utah Valley University!
But, on a sad note...not being in school means I won't run into no-name guy. I actually found out his name, but it was like 3 weeks that I didn't know his name. It was kind of funny. He is my friend's cousin and really kinda cute. He recognized me from last summer and we started talking. It was a lot of fun and I looked forward to chatting with him in between my classes when I was in the hall and he was getting out of class. However, I won't be seeing him anymore because now our schedules aren't the same! AND, the last day of class I was hoping we could plan something, go hang out or something like that, but this stupid guy kept asking me questions for a dumb survey and no-name guy kept walking! I was SOOO not happy! And since I haven't really talked to his cousin much, it would be weird for me to call her up and ask for his number or something...GRRR...not happy.
I have also made a new friend in the ward. Me and my Spanish class friend call him "awkward hug guy" because (as the name describes) there was an awkward hug moment. He is a hilarious guy, and I love hanging out with him. He is a hugger, always giving you a hug. The first time he gave me a hug we weren't really friends, kind of acquaintances and he gave me a hug and it was so awkward for me...I wasn't expecting it and it was just weird. Its still weird sometimes, even though we are now friends. I don't think I will ever stop calling him awkward hug guy, though...its just such a fun name.
I am really hoping this summer with be AWESOME...it should be. In July I am going to Vegas with Fort to see THE FRAY....I'm so freaking excited for that one!!!!!! Plus, maybe I will be incredibly lucky and get to hang out with NNG (no name guy) and AHG (awkward hug guy) this summer, that would prove to be not only entertaining, but also hilarious. I'll cross my fingers...
Any way, I best be getting back to studying, but at least now I have had a moment to be away from school and all of its annoyances that come with finals week. I will let you know how everything turns out!!

To cut or not to cut...That is the question

Okay...its spring time which means I am seriously tempted to cut my hair...should I? Or, should I grow my hair out longer? Here a couple picks to compare...

Here is last summer:




And here is me today, as in April 22, 2009...
From the front, and I realize I am super ultra pale...its just how I am!



And here is the back...obviously I at least need it trimmed because there are a TON of split ends...I hate split ends...


Okay, so the vote is up to you...SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR OR NOT?????? Let me know and when I decided I will post the results!!

iYo se que vive me Senor!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE Easter. It is probably my most favorite holiday because it truly focuses on the Savior. I absolutely loved Elder Holland's talk from conference a couple weeks ago and was thrilled when I found this clip on youtube and thought I would share it with all of you!!! HOORAY!!! I hope you had a fabulous Easter and if you didn't find time during the holiday, I hope you will take just a minute and watch this clip and reflect on our dear Saviors atoning sacrifice for you. Alma 7: 11-13 talks about it and all that it really means to each of us!

Snip Snip Snippet for you!

Okay, so this is another snippet of my ever growing book. This is where Kyla meets Jason post accident on the beach. She's not actually been alone in weeks because her mom has been worried and hovering over her since the hospital, so she convinces her friend, Ashley, to take her to Ashley's house so she can go for a walk alone on the beach. It takes some convincing, but Ashley finally agrees and this is what happens next:

Once I was safely away from Ashley’s view, I let a tear escape my eye and fall to the ground. I knew there was a wave of emotion dying to be released, but I held it at bay, as I had for a few weeks now. The sound of the ocean waves coming in and back out brought peace to my soul. I didn’t care where I went; I just wandered the beach until I was finally so tired that I just sat down. I was close enough to let the waves wash over my toes. I looked around to make sure I was alone, and finally opened the flood gates and let all the emotion I had hid these last few weeks come rushing over me.

I replayed my last memory of Jake over and over again. His face, that look in his eye when he told me he’d be alright, and to let him go. Being in his arms that last time, even if it wasn’t real it felt like it to me; and that was enough. I was so lost in my own thoughts I didn’t notice the changing tide until a wave taller than me came crashing down over me soaking me from head to toe. I heard my name…it sounded like Jake, and then another wave came in. I was brought abruptly back to reality and tried to stand, but the waves were pulling me deeper into the water. I saw someone walking quickly towards me as I struggled to break free of the water’s grasp. I tried to stand and slipped in the attempt, but didn’t splash back down like I was supposed to. I turned my head back to see who had caught me. He looked so familiar, but I couldn’t put my finger on how.

“Are you alright?” It was the voice I had heard earlier, calling my name. It wasn’t Jakes voice, it was his. Funny how similar they had sounded at the time, but now it was clearly not Jake’s voice. He was tall, over 6 feet tall, I’d guess. His hair was dark, almost black and cut very short; but his eyes were a crisp blue. As blue as the ocean that now surrounded me. He reached down and picked me up as if I weighed nothing and carried me further in away from the water. Once he put me down I turned to face him,

“I’m okay. Thanks for your help.” I started ringing out my hair and my clothes.

“You should really be more careful out here. The tide changes quick and if you’re not careful it will pull right out there, and then I’d have to go for a swim which I don’t really mind doing…if I’m planning on getting wet.” He said with a smirk. Even though he was smiling, it wasn’t reaching his eyes. I could see a sadness there that went deep.

“I’ll remember that. I’m Kyla, by the way.” I held my hand out to shake his. He took it and said, “Nice to meet you, Kyla. I’m Jason” I still couldn’t put my finger on why he looked so familiar. It was going to drive me crazy if I didn’t ask him, so I did.

“I realize this may sound silly, or maybe even crazy, but you look so familiar and I can’t put my finger on how I know you…have we met before?” He looked at me for a minute and then started laughing. I just stood there wondering what was apparently so funny.

“I’m sorry, I just don’t usually get that question very often. Usually there’s screaming, followed by running, and more screaming…my last name is Tyde. I’m Jason Tyde.” OH. Light bulb turns on and of course I know who he is. Who feels like an even bigger idiot? Me. Not only do I nearly get washed away, but then I don’t even recognize People Magazine’s Sexiest Man Alive last year….wow. I’m a loser.

“Oh gosh. Wow, I feel really stupid right now. Of course I know who you are. I’ve seen like all of your movies.” If my face wasn’t already red from the tears and the near death experience, it was now. Even if it was red before, it was a deeper red now. He just laughed again.

“Honestly, Kyla, its really nice not to be recognized right away. All the screaming and the running gets old fast. So, thank you for not making such a big deal out of meeting me.”

All Things Considered...

I was thinking a lot about life the other day. I don't know when I really found time to think, but I did and I was thinking about all the good things in life. Heaven knows we spend enough time on the bad, so I decided to just think about the good, and I was thinking of the things I am grateful for.

I am grateful for my family. Most of you who read this would fall in that category. I am so grateful for you!!! I would not be the person I am today without my family. Siblings, extended family, family I decided should be my family, etc.. I know when I am having a rough day that there will always be someone I can call to lift me up when I need it. I mentioned my dream in my last post and checked my e-mail today and had 3 comments of support. You just made my day! THANK YOU!!

I am grateful for my friends. I feel like I am always gaining and losing friends, but a select few have managed to stay my friend for some years now. I don't know what I would do without my friends. The real and true ones, you know...the ones who have proven true. I can't even count the number of times I have been shafted or hurt by those who said they were my friend. I guess its because I am always trying to see the good in people. But those friends I have kept have been the greatest.

I am grateful for school, even if I do hate it right now. I am very blessed to be able to attend a university were I can become anything I want to be. How many people really have that opportunity?

I am grateful for the gospel and how much the Lord has done for me. A year and a half is a sacrifice, but I feel that I received more blessings from going than the sacrifice it was to go. I love talking about the gospel, its one of my most favorite things, and I think its because I start and end my day in prayer...and I spend like all day talking to my Father in Heaven. I never imagined I would feel close to Him like I do now.

I am grateful for music. There is nothing that gets me in the right mood to finish a chapter of writing, or get me out of bed in the morning, or put me in the right mood to actually make it through 8 hours of class every other day.

You know, all things considered...I've got a lot of things. I think its super easy to look at all the crappy things going on in our lives, but it takes time to remember the blessings we have. At least, that's how it is for me. I tend to dwell on the negative in my mind and then I wonder why things always look gloomy. But really, I've got a lot going for me!

The Goal

So, I have decided to take the summer off from school and work on my writing. I have a new goal! I want to have the first draft of my book finished in 6 months and work on getting it published.
I know its going to be super hard, but its my goal and its something I've always dreamed of doing, but never thought I'd have the drive to accomplish it. And, not that I have it finished now, but I'm actually working at it. I have about 100 pages now and I know that if I can keep up with my current pace I will be able to accomplish my goal!

I heart SPRING!!! not Tex....

Even though it is still pretty cold AND snowed on Monday, that's okay...today was pretty and warm! This has been a fun week...other than one small little thing that kinda got to me...yeah...here's a story for you:

I have a friend. When I met him, we all called him Tex because he's from Texas. He was dating my friend at the time and she and I became best friends. Her name is Fort because she's from Fort Collins. A year or so after we all became friends Tex moved back to Utah from Texas and he and I started hanging out a lot and became really good friends. Then he went on his mission and a little more than a year later I went on mine! So, we wrote occasionally on the missions and he came back and was dating my friend again. I thought they were a great couple. But, it didn't last and they broke up. Lucky for me, though, I was never put in the middle, so I still maintained both my best friends!
So, every once in a while me and Tex do hang out, whenever we are in the same city at the same time-which isn't all that often since he's in Logan and I'm down here-but its good times when we do hang out. Well, this past week a lot of my friends have been asking me if I have feelings for Tex...where did all this come from? I haven't seen him since our birthdays (his is the day before mine). Well, he was down for spring break so we went to lunch and that day at school one of my friends from class (who has never met Tex and really hasn't heard a lot about him because I don't really talk about him all that much) asks me if I have feelings for him. I tell her no and that night I call Fort and tell her how random it is and she says "So, do you have feelings for him? I mean its cool if you do" I was shocked and surprised. She of all people is supposed to know that me and Tex are just friends! So, to set the record straight: Tex is just a friend. I don't have feelings for him other than friendship. He's an awesome friend and I do love hanging out with him. But I don't think I could ever date him. So there you go. End of story. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm glad you all understand.

And in memory of Logan, B...this one is for you: