I really enjoy summer, its a lot of fun. Its so relaxing, there are so many things to do outside and its so warm and most people (not me) get a nice tan. I just burn, peel, repeat. No tan. Its kinda sad actually. Any way, I LOVE having fun in the summer and spending time with family and friends. Its great. I love the break from school and everything. But there's also this other part of summer that I hate. Don't get me wrong, there's a lot more love than hate, but when I hate summer, I loathe it. Right now its pretty close to loathing.
You know those people that you may be acquainted with that when you were single you saw them and thought to yourself "if they get married before me, I will kill myself" now I realize you don't literally mean you'd kill yourself, but still, its not good. Maybe its because I'm prideful, maybe I'm super insecure, but this person I've been acquainted with for a while just got engaged and she was one of those people that I thought for sure I'd get married before her. And I'm not. And for the most part I'm okay with that. But she's still getting married first...see the problem? I guess its just because I am not patient and I feel like time is running out for me. I know, I know, I'm only 25 and I still have my whole life ahead of me, but this was NEVER part of the plan I had for myself. I was supposed to be married a few years ago and have at least a kid by now. I am supposed to be graduated from college and teaching school somewhere. That was the plan. And now, I have no clue what I'm doing. I've still got years ahead of me in school. I'm not married, no prospects of it happening anytime soon, and all my friends are disappearing one by one...see where the loathing comes in to play? I hate summer and all the stupid wedding invites that I want to burn.
Now I'm just venting, sorry about that. On a somewhat positive note, I got to meet Lisa Mangum last Saturday which was awesome and got my books signed. I think I've mentioned my love for her books. If you need a reminder, you can look here, or here, or here. ha ha ha. I LOVE her books!!! A-MAZING!!!
So, I think I've mentioned this before, but I teach Gospel Doctrine on Sundays, and as many of you know its the Old Testament this year. Yeah, I love the Old Testament, which most people find odd, but some of the coolest people are in the Old Testament. It was decided by a few guys in my ward that I should have been a baptist preacher. Apparently my love the the Good Word comes across in my lessons, which is actually a good thing because the other teachers that I teach with are so boring I want to sleep. Bless their hearts. I have fun teaching, and I hope everyone that comes to class gets as much out of the lesson as I do when I prepare to teach it.
Um...yeah, that's pretty much it. I am addicted to the music from Glee...the Journey to Regionals CD is currently on repeat on my ipod. LOVE IT! I say that a lot...hmmm...interesting...well, good luck!!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
They got all the right friends in all the right places....
Well hello all my dear friends!
So, in the last week I have had like 5 or 6 people ask me if I've lost weight. Isn't that the nicest thing to hear from random people? I love it. And to be honest it keeps me going. I have become a little OCD when it comes to the food I eat. I mean its not like I am going to turn things down like at the family BBQ we had on Memorial Day, but I am much more conscious of what I eat on my own. I also try and eat breakfast which is something I have never been good at. And, I keep "running" its really more of a light jog/walk right now, but I'm getting out of the house and moving. GLORIOUS!
So, it is definitely summertime because I have found that I am listening to The Fray (How To Save A Life), Rob Thomas (Something To Be), Meese (Broadcast), and The Script (The Script) which are all summertime albums that I seem to listen to all summer long. It is so glorious to wake up to Man Who Can't Be Moved, or Over My Head (Cable Car). On the weekends when I don't have to get up as early as I do on the weekdays and my favorite part of waking up on those days is just sitting there in my bed thinking about life and listening to some amazing songs. I find I think most clearly just after I have woken up. It really is a fresh start with nothing to cloud my thoughts or my mind. Its truly awe inspiring.
Let me tell you a little story. Once upon a time I was a kid. It was like 20 years ago. Okay, not that long, but still a goodly amount of time. I was a kid and I was lonely. I didn't have a lot of friends. Then one day after I had been praying for what seemed like forever, a new family moved in to the neighborhood. And lo and behold they had a daughter my age! We became quick friends and did many many things together. Then, just before high school started she moved away. Far away and I was very sad. We kept in contact a little bit, but it wasn't the same and I never forgot how great my friend was, or how much I missed her. Then, I grew up and went on a mission and at my farewell my friend came! I was shocked! And she brought her mother with her, who was always like a mom to me. I LOVE that family! LOVE THEM! for real. Any way, I got to say good bye to them before I left, which was a good thing because as it turned out my friend went on a mission herself like a week before I got home. Yeah, a WEEK. So, we didn't see each other for like 3 more years and it was sad, but that's okay because when my friend got home from her mission she started a blog. That's right a blog, but its not your usual blog. In fact, I think you should check it out...right HERE. I followed it and found out that my friend's mother was publishing a cook book (which is amazing, BTW...you should check it out!!) and also that she was doing a book signing at Barnes and Noble sort of by my house. I practically live at Barnes and Noble...books books books...I call it "heaven" and can spend HOURS there, just ask Tex, that's where he and I always end up when we hang out. Any way, I went to the book signing and had so much fun!! If you get the chance to go, I HIGHLY reccomend it! Also, they are giving away a Blendtech kitchen mill. Pretty cool, I think you should check it out.
In other news, I have been in the best mood to write. My goal is to have my first draft finished by the end of the summer. That's like 2 months. I think I can do it!! Tonight I was at the mall with a friend and we were in all the trendy stores comparing scents and Hollister has one called "Jake" NO JOKE!!! AND, it smells like Jake would, if he were a real person. Man I love those characters!! I wish they were real so we could hang out and stuff! Any way, best of luck this week!! I will be thinking of you all as I try not to die running, or actually jogging...lightly! Ha ha!!
So, in the last week I have had like 5 or 6 people ask me if I've lost weight. Isn't that the nicest thing to hear from random people? I love it. And to be honest it keeps me going. I have become a little OCD when it comes to the food I eat. I mean its not like I am going to turn things down like at the family BBQ we had on Memorial Day, but I am much more conscious of what I eat on my own. I also try and eat breakfast which is something I have never been good at. And, I keep "running" its really more of a light jog/walk right now, but I'm getting out of the house and moving. GLORIOUS!
So, it is definitely summertime because I have found that I am listening to The Fray (How To Save A Life), Rob Thomas (Something To Be), Meese (Broadcast), and The Script (The Script) which are all summertime albums that I seem to listen to all summer long. It is so glorious to wake up to Man Who Can't Be Moved, or Over My Head (Cable Car). On the weekends when I don't have to get up as early as I do on the weekdays and my favorite part of waking up on those days is just sitting there in my bed thinking about life and listening to some amazing songs. I find I think most clearly just after I have woken up. It really is a fresh start with nothing to cloud my thoughts or my mind. Its truly awe inspiring.
Let me tell you a little story. Once upon a time I was a kid. It was like 20 years ago. Okay, not that long, but still a goodly amount of time. I was a kid and I was lonely. I didn't have a lot of friends. Then one day after I had been praying for what seemed like forever, a new family moved in to the neighborhood. And lo and behold they had a daughter my age! We became quick friends and did many many things together. Then, just before high school started she moved away. Far away and I was very sad. We kept in contact a little bit, but it wasn't the same and I never forgot how great my friend was, or how much I missed her. Then, I grew up and went on a mission and at my farewell my friend came! I was shocked! And she brought her mother with her, who was always like a mom to me. I LOVE that family! LOVE THEM! for real. Any way, I got to say good bye to them before I left, which was a good thing because as it turned out my friend went on a mission herself like a week before I got home. Yeah, a WEEK. So, we didn't see each other for like 3 more years and it was sad, but that's okay because when my friend got home from her mission she started a blog. That's right a blog, but its not your usual blog. In fact, I think you should check it out...right HERE. I followed it and found out that my friend's mother was publishing a cook book (which is amazing, BTW...you should check it out!!) and also that she was doing a book signing at Barnes and Noble sort of by my house. I practically live at Barnes and Noble...books books books...I call it "heaven" and can spend HOURS there, just ask Tex, that's where he and I always end up when we hang out. Any way, I went to the book signing and had so much fun!! If you get the chance to go, I HIGHLY reccomend it! Also, they are giving away a Blendtech kitchen mill. Pretty cool, I think you should check it out.
In other news, I have been in the best mood to write. My goal is to have my first draft finished by the end of the summer. That's like 2 months. I think I can do it!! Tonight I was at the mall with a friend and we were in all the trendy stores comparing scents and Hollister has one called "Jake" NO JOKE!!! AND, it smells like Jake would, if he were a real person. Man I love those characters!! I wish they were real so we could hang out and stuff! Any way, best of luck this week!! I will be thinking of you all as I try not to die running, or actually jogging...lightly! Ha ha!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sort of...maybe...
Okay, I have to be quick quick before I go to work today. Actually, I still have like a half hour before I HAVE to go get ready. I hate Monday shifts, unless they are short and they give me a break until Friday, like today. I work until 8 and then I don't work again until a short shift on Friday. HOORAY!!!
Any way, this weekend I had the house all to myself. It was weird. Usually being home alone at night freaks me out because I have a super overactive imagination and I end up staying awake all night because I'm freaked out about what could happen while I sleep since I'm the only one there, but this time I was totally fine. I slept VERY well both nights and enjoyed the silence of an empty house. Except, I forgot to turn the outside lights on when I went to work on Saturday night so when I got home super late it was super dark. But don't worry, no one tried to get me. And even if they had, I would have karate chopped them or something cool like that.
I made some more cards with my favorite sister ever on Friday night. It was awesome. She and I have very similar personalities so when we both get really tired and loopy, the possibilities are endless. But it was great to spend some time with her. She makes me laugh.
I also made cards with my sister in law on Sunday night, I am a card making addict lately, as previously mentioned in my last post. It was so much fun! I made the most adorable cards that I will post pictures of later. SO adorable!!
I watched my first ever episode of Dancing With The Stars the other day. I confess it was only because my coworker told me to (and I don't usually do what she tells me to, but Evan Lysachek was on, and I like him, so I wanted to see it.) I don't think its a show I will watch often, if ever again. I get weekly updates from my coworkers, but apparently Evan's dancing last week was super amazing. It was just dancing to me. Maybe because I'm not a dancer. I still maintain that if you're going to get a gold medal olympian to be on a show about dancing, I think you should get like a skier or something, not someone who trains for hours and hours and hours dancing on ICE. I'm just sayin...he's a shoe in for winning. I don't think he's gotten a bad score all season.
I didn't plan on talking about that, but moving on, the creative juices have been flowing a lot lately and I have been writing a lot more lately. I always really really want to write when I'm headed to work where I can't write and I get frustrated and then I get annoyed and then my coworkers steer clear because I am not in a mood to be trifled with.
I am going to go see the new Robin Hood movie this week, I think. I've heard that all the critics hated it, which means that I will probably LOVE it. That's what usually happens. I will let you know what I thought after I see it.
I have been playing 3 songs on repeat for 2 weeks now. "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse, "One" by U2, and "Breakeven" by The Script. Songs I could live my life by...maybe...sort of....
I finally got caught up on GLEE...oh my gosh that show makes me laugh. Glee Quote of the Week: "I'm like Tinkerbell, Fin, I nee applause to live!" - Rachel. Ha ha ha ha ha ha....LOVE IT!!!!!
Any way, have a great week...I'll check in again soon. PS: Anyone who follows LOST, its over, how do you feel about that? I have only heard bits and pieces about it, but I heard it was crazy/awesome...what are your thoughts?
Any way, this weekend I had the house all to myself. It was weird. Usually being home alone at night freaks me out because I have a super overactive imagination and I end up staying awake all night because I'm freaked out about what could happen while I sleep since I'm the only one there, but this time I was totally fine. I slept VERY well both nights and enjoyed the silence of an empty house. Except, I forgot to turn the outside lights on when I went to work on Saturday night so when I got home super late it was super dark. But don't worry, no one tried to get me. And even if they had, I would have karate chopped them or something cool like that.
I made some more cards with my favorite sister ever on Friday night. It was awesome. She and I have very similar personalities so when we both get really tired and loopy, the possibilities are endless. But it was great to spend some time with her. She makes me laugh.
I also made cards with my sister in law on Sunday night, I am a card making addict lately, as previously mentioned in my last post. It was so much fun! I made the most adorable cards that I will post pictures of later. SO adorable!!
I watched my first ever episode of Dancing With The Stars the other day. I confess it was only because my coworker told me to (and I don't usually do what she tells me to, but Evan Lysachek was on, and I like him, so I wanted to see it.) I don't think its a show I will watch often, if ever again. I get weekly updates from my coworkers, but apparently Evan's dancing last week was super amazing. It was just dancing to me. Maybe because I'm not a dancer. I still maintain that if you're going to get a gold medal olympian to be on a show about dancing, I think you should get like a skier or something, not someone who trains for hours and hours and hours dancing on ICE. I'm just sayin...he's a shoe in for winning. I don't think he's gotten a bad score all season.
I didn't plan on talking about that, but moving on, the creative juices have been flowing a lot lately and I have been writing a lot more lately. I always really really want to write when I'm headed to work where I can't write and I get frustrated and then I get annoyed and then my coworkers steer clear because I am not in a mood to be trifled with.
I am going to go see the new Robin Hood movie this week, I think. I've heard that all the critics hated it, which means that I will probably LOVE it. That's what usually happens. I will let you know what I thought after I see it.
I have been playing 3 songs on repeat for 2 weeks now. "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse, "One" by U2, and "Breakeven" by The Script. Songs I could live my life by...maybe...sort of....
I finally got caught up on GLEE...oh my gosh that show makes me laugh. Glee Quote of the Week: "I'm like Tinkerbell, Fin, I nee applause to live!" - Rachel. Ha ha ha ha ha ha....LOVE IT!!!!!
Any way, have a great week...I'll check in again soon. PS: Anyone who follows LOST, its over, how do you feel about that? I have only heard bits and pieces about it, but I heard it was crazy/awesome...what are your thoughts?
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Addicted
This is a post about my latest addictions.
My friends Elen and Thomas decided I should watch this anime show called Fruits Basket...ever heard of it? I LOVE it!!! Its a great show! There is some cursing, but for some reason it doesn't bother me like cursing usually does. I mean there are no f-bombs or anything that serious, but still some minor cursing. Elen was worried I'd be offended by it or something, but no. Its a great show and I think everyone should watch it. Unless you don't really like anime...then I wouldn't force you to watch it or anything.
Another addiction, card making. I have talked about this previously...but seriously its like a drug. I can't get enough of it!!! One of the smaller overpriced scrapbook stores is going out of buisness and I have been able to pick up some killer deals on scrapbook stuff so I can make even more cards!!! I'm sure you can imagine my excitment. So, I will continue to watch Sam Worthington movies and make the most adorable cards ever. Its going to be fantastic!!!!
The Script. I am totally ADDICTED. I'm like a little kid with TONS of candy when it comes to their music. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE the song Breakeven. Its my favorite. I listened to it for 3 days on repeat last week. I do that on occasion. It drives people insane, and I'm sure I should care...but I don't. If you don't know who The Script is, shame on you and ask me about them. I will be more than happy to play a line or two for you because I have their music on my phone, Ipod, etc...
Books. I freaking love books. The more I read them the more I want to finish Changing Tyde. I freaking love Jason Tyde and want everyone else to love him as much as I do...which I don't think will ever be possible, but you never know. He is pretty amazing. My friend Tex was making fun of me the other day because I have a lot of young adult books. I like them. They are a quick read and I also had to point out my vast collection of the classics. Just because you've seen P&P doesn't mean you know Mr. Darcy, Elizabeth, or Jane Austen's world. Go read a few classics and then look at the world...its a whole different place if you're looking for it.
Outside. ADDICTED to being outside. And lately I want to run/walk/jog in it. A-MAZING!!! I love it!!! Plus today it was like 70 degrees or something outside. Ah spring, I have missed you! Remember how we used to be all BFF and everything, and then you let it SNOW on me in MAY!!! What the heck!?!?!?! But, if you come back now, no hard feelings and we can be BFF again.
Weekends. I took last Saturday off. It as amazing. I loved it. I went to Salt Lake and spent it with my friends. I miss having real weekends. I wish I didn't have to work in the deli so much, but one day I will be free of it and will have my weekends back and it will be GLORIOUS!!!!
Roasting marshmallows indoors. Its so much fun! I was at Elen and Thomas's house and we roasted marshmallows over their stove and then made this delicious smore-ness that was to die for. I loved it!!
Lisa Mangum books. The Hourglass Door and The Golden Spiral. A-freakin-MAZING!!!! Can't wait for the 3rd and final book that comes out next spring...I know, I know, a whole year away, but its going to rock. Lisa Mangum is actually doing a book signing in AF in June. I think I'm going to go and meet her. That would be fun. Then I can get my books signed too. That would rock. But if you haven't read her books yet, come find me and I will let you borrow my copy. Such good books. I'm totally ADDICTED.
Okay, that's enough for now. I hope you had fun at the small glimpse into my latest springtime addictions!!! YAY!!!
My friends Elen and Thomas decided I should watch this anime show called Fruits Basket...ever heard of it? I LOVE it!!! Its a great show! There is some cursing, but for some reason it doesn't bother me like cursing usually does. I mean there are no f-bombs or anything that serious, but still some minor cursing. Elen was worried I'd be offended by it or something, but no. Its a great show and I think everyone should watch it. Unless you don't really like anime...then I wouldn't force you to watch it or anything.
Another addiction, card making. I have talked about this previously...but seriously its like a drug. I can't get enough of it!!! One of the smaller overpriced scrapbook stores is going out of buisness and I have been able to pick up some killer deals on scrapbook stuff so I can make even more cards!!! I'm sure you can imagine my excitment. So, I will continue to watch Sam Worthington movies and make the most adorable cards ever. Its going to be fantastic!!!!
The Script. I am totally ADDICTED. I'm like a little kid with TONS of candy when it comes to their music. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE the song Breakeven. Its my favorite. I listened to it for 3 days on repeat last week. I do that on occasion. It drives people insane, and I'm sure I should care...but I don't. If you don't know who The Script is, shame on you and ask me about them. I will be more than happy to play a line or two for you because I have their music on my phone, Ipod, etc...
Books. I freaking love books. The more I read them the more I want to finish Changing Tyde. I freaking love Jason Tyde and want everyone else to love him as much as I do...which I don't think will ever be possible, but you never know. He is pretty amazing. My friend Tex was making fun of me the other day because I have a lot of young adult books. I like them. They are a quick read and I also had to point out my vast collection of the classics. Just because you've seen P&P doesn't mean you know Mr. Darcy, Elizabeth, or Jane Austen's world. Go read a few classics and then look at the world...its a whole different place if you're looking for it.
Outside. ADDICTED to being outside. And lately I want to run/walk/jog in it. A-MAZING!!! I love it!!! Plus today it was like 70 degrees or something outside. Ah spring, I have missed you! Remember how we used to be all BFF and everything, and then you let it SNOW on me in MAY!!! What the heck!?!?!?! But, if you come back now, no hard feelings and we can be BFF again.
Weekends. I took last Saturday off. It as amazing. I loved it. I went to Salt Lake and spent it with my friends. I miss having real weekends. I wish I didn't have to work in the deli so much, but one day I will be free of it and will have my weekends back and it will be GLORIOUS!!!!
Roasting marshmallows indoors. Its so much fun! I was at Elen and Thomas's house and we roasted marshmallows over their stove and then made this delicious smore-ness that was to die for. I loved it!!
Lisa Mangum books. The Hourglass Door and The Golden Spiral. A-freakin-MAZING!!!! Can't wait for the 3rd and final book that comes out next spring...I know, I know, a whole year away, but its going to rock. Lisa Mangum is actually doing a book signing in AF in June. I think I'm going to go and meet her. That would be fun. Then I can get my books signed too. That would rock. But if you haven't read her books yet, come find me and I will let you borrow my copy. Such good books. I'm totally ADDICTED.
Okay, that's enough for now. I hope you had fun at the small glimpse into my latest springtime addictions!!! YAY!!!
Friday, May 14, 2010
Storytime!!!
I have to hurry because I am headed to work, but here's a blip of what I've been working on. Also, I will have you know that I went on a walk today, and a jog on Wednesday. I feel GREAT!! I feel like I am accomplishing something....any way, here is a blip from Changing Tyde. Kyla has just gotten home from school and its her first time back since the accident and everything, she and Jason kept in touch while she was at school and made plans for the day she got home, so here you go, hope you enjoy! OH, and the mention of Park City is earlier in the story, Jason was there and Kyla went to see him one weekend and they ended up kind of arguing a little about Brooke, but worked things out...just an FYI in case you wonder while reading...
I was so glad to be home, I don’t think I had ever missed it quite as much as I had this last semester. I don’t know how long I just sat in my room and looked at everything. As always it was just as I had left it. It never changed. I looked at the pictures that were still taped to the mirror and looked down at the dresser, and there it was. I had almost forgotten about it completely. Jake’s ring. I gently lifted the lid of the little black box, and there it shined as if it had never been on my finger, as if it had never been the symbol of promises that nothing on this Earth could end up giving me. I pulled it out of the box and sat on the edge of my bed. How things had changed. I remembered putting it in this box and leaving it here so I wouldn’t remember the lost hopes and dreams I associated with it. I remembered Jake, how he used to infuriate me, how I fell so madly in love with him. I remembered every part of his face, the dimples on his cheeks that appeared when he smiled, the way he looked at me, and only me. I knew when he looked at me that nothing else mattered to him, that I was everything to him. I missed feeling like that. I was so lost in thought that I didn’t hear my phone go off several times, or the calls from downstairs that someone was at the door for me, I didn’t hear anything until there was a knock on my bedroom door and a familiar voice, “Kyla, can I come in?” Immediately I was brought back to reality. Jason was here. I put the ring back in the box and walked to the door opening it. There he stood, leaning against the door frame.
I was so glad to be home, I don’t think I had ever missed it quite as much as I had this last semester. I don’t know how long I just sat in my room and looked at everything. As always it was just as I had left it. It never changed. I looked at the pictures that were still taped to the mirror and looked down at the dresser, and there it was. I had almost forgotten about it completely. Jake’s ring. I gently lifted the lid of the little black box, and there it shined as if it had never been on my finger, as if it had never been the symbol of promises that nothing on this Earth could end up giving me. I pulled it out of the box and sat on the edge of my bed. How things had changed. I remembered putting it in this box and leaving it here so I wouldn’t remember the lost hopes and dreams I associated with it. I remembered Jake, how he used to infuriate me, how I fell so madly in love with him. I remembered every part of his face, the dimples on his cheeks that appeared when he smiled, the way he looked at me, and only me. I knew when he looked at me that nothing else mattered to him, that I was everything to him. I missed feeling like that. I was so lost in thought that I didn’t hear my phone go off several times, or the calls from downstairs that someone was at the door for me, I didn’t hear anything until there was a knock on my bedroom door and a familiar voice, “Kyla, can I come in?” Immediately I was brought back to reality. Jason was here. I put the ring back in the box and walked to the door opening it. There he stood, leaning against the door frame.
“I thought I was going to have to break down the door if you hadn’t answered. So, are you still up for dinner and a movie at my place?” There was happy go lucky Jason again. I had missed him. I was worried that things had changed after Park City
“Yeah, sorry,” I looked down at the box still in my hand. I quickly walked over to the dresser and replaced it to its place out of sight, and hopefully out of mind. Picking up my bag I noticed Jason’s eye was still on the box. I gently prodded him down the hall as I shut my door. I knew he wanted to ask about it, but thought better of it. It was my turn to be honest with him this time. We were almost to his Ferrari when I finally spoke.
“It was Jake’s ring…in the little box I had in my hand. I forgot I still had it. I didn’t have the heart to sell it, but I didn’t want it in Utah
“Ky, you don’t have to talk about-“ he started to speak, but I cut him off
“No, Jason, its okay. You are the one person I feel like understands me right now. I have spent so much time moarning his loss, I have forgotten to live my own. I miss him, and I think part of me always will…but its time for me to move on. So, with you as my witness I will actually say yes to the next guy that asks me out.” Jason laughed as he turned on the the highway and headed to his beach house.
“Really? Even if its some drunk on the street, you’re still going to say yes? And is this a new thing, you will always say yes to whomever asks you out? I mean that’s a pretty serious commitment, friend” He had that sparkle in the corner of his eye that lit up his whole face and made smile, I absolutely loved Jason when he was laid back like this.
“Okay, not like that, but I am going to go out with the next guy that is honest and good and actually wants to take me on a date. Not my looks, not out of pity, but honestly the next guy that actually wants to get to know me I will say yes.”
“Good luck finding him”
“He exists” I confess, I was really kind of hoping it was Jason. Not that I was like planning the wedding or anything, but I would love to get to know Jason better. We had made a good start, but it was all through e-mail and text, nothing face to face and yet he was like my best friend.
“So when are we going to go out then?” He asked pulling me out of my thoughts and laying a golden opportunity in front of me.
“I thought that’s what tonight was, just not in so many words…I mean dinner and a movie is classic date material. And, I didn’t even know you cooked, so bonus points for that.”
He laughed even harder than before. “You assume I cook. Did you forget who I am? I have a chef on speed dial. The day I cook, is the day you should either run for cover or know something is up. I don’t generally cook, it’s better that way.”
“So what is the plan for tonight?” I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face, but his smirk was staying in place too.
“Well, since this is a date, which I am glad to hear it is. I was thinking dinner in the dining room that overlooks the ocean, a walk on the beach during sunset and then a really awesome movie like Casino Royale or something like that…what do you say?”
My stomach tightened and I tried not to let the mention of Jake’s first date with me show on my face, but it did. Just calm down, Ky.
“What is it Ky? Not a Bond fan? I thought most chicks liked Daniel Craig as the new Bond. I mean we can watch whatever, I don’t care, I was just trying to not make it all cheesy by watching a chick flick and making it sound like one of my movies or something.” He reached over with his free hand and put it on my shoulder. The second his hand touched me, I instantly relaxed. Jason was always the cure when I started freaking out about memories of Jake. Heat spread from my shoulder throughout my body and I took a deep breath and relaxed exhailing slowly.
“No, lets watch something else. I have Jake memories attached to James Bond, sorry, but what about Terminator Salvation? I LOVE that movie!” I glanced over and Jason just shook his head and laughed.
“What?”
“Nothing”
“Nothing”
“Whatever” was all I could think to respond with as we pulled into his driveway and I waited patiently for him to come and open my door since I remembered a conversation we had had about how girls today are too independent to let a guy be a gentleman, so even though it killed me, I waited and he opened the door offering me his hand.
We walked around the back were there was a candle light dinner waiting at a perfectly set table for two.
“Wow, someone was hopeful” I said, smiling. Of all the people I wanted to spend time with, Jason was at the top of the list. Not because he was Jason Tyde the movie star, but because he was one of the few people I knew I could count on and who really understood me. He wasn’t just playing a role, he was real with me, and I was really starting to like that about him.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Goals
Today I will change. On May 11, 2011 (exactly one year from today) I will look back to today and see how much I have accomplished, because I WILL change so many things. Here are a few of the goals I am working on right now:
I WILL work out at least 3 times a week, and I mean serious want to die from being pushed so hard work outs.
I WILL run a 10K next year with my brother
I WILL save up enough money to move out AND quit Maceys
I WILL meet new people
I WILL be incredibly social this summer and spend as much time as I can with a whole variety of people
I WILL organize all my scrapbook stuff so it is more accessible
I WILL finish my manuscript this summer
I WILL read at least one non fiction, and one fiction book a month-hopefully more, but we'll see
I WILL become the person I have always wanted to be, but too scared to step out and be in front of others.
I am so excited to work on these goals. Today I actually felt like going for a run...that's never happened that I am aware of...but it was too dark and rainy by the time I got off, and I was mad. SO, tomorrow I am going for a run, and it will be a fabulous kick in the face! I'm kind of excited.
This summer WILL rock and everything is going to change and its going to be super hard, but I know it will be worth it!!! HOORAY!!!!
I WILL work out at least 3 times a week, and I mean serious want to die from being pushed so hard work outs.
I WILL run a 10K next year with my brother
I WILL save up enough money to move out AND quit Maceys
I WILL meet new people
I WILL be incredibly social this summer and spend as much time as I can with a whole variety of people
I WILL organize all my scrapbook stuff so it is more accessible
I WILL finish my manuscript this summer
I WILL read at least one non fiction, and one fiction book a month-hopefully more, but we'll see
I WILL become the person I have always wanted to be, but too scared to step out and be in front of others.
I am so excited to work on these goals. Today I actually felt like going for a run...that's never happened that I am aware of...but it was too dark and rainy by the time I got off, and I was mad. SO, tomorrow I am going for a run, and it will be a fabulous kick in the face! I'm kind of excited.
This summer WILL rock and everything is going to change and its going to be super hard, but I know it will be worth it!!! HOORAY!!!!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Domestic Godessness
Any way, enough about movie stars and cards...lets talk about something else...I talked to AHG today. I have been talking to him on and off lately and its been fun. He was mentioning how he doesn't understand why relationships never work with him and why he keeps getting dumped even though he's doing everything he can to be the perfect boyfriend. I was very blunt with him and told him it was the girls he dates and the fact that he doesn't let people do things for him, he's all about serving others (which is good, don't get me wrong) but I think you also need to be willing to let someone serve you too. Just a thought. He was surprised by my honesty. He mentioned today how grateful he was that he and I are just friends and we both know exactly how the other one feels about our friendship. I don't remember what I said, but I was surprised he had mentioned it at all. I don't know what to think of him...I mean I don't have feelings for him outside of friendship anymore, which is good, but it was just weird.
Any way, I need to go to bed so I can wake up in the morning and start another amazing day in the life of ME!!!!OH! PS: I finished The Golden Spiral, which is the sequel to The Hourglass Door, which I loved. I LOVED both of them!!! Oh my gosh, however, if you don't handle cliff hangers well, I wouldn't recommend reading them until next year when the 3rd and final book comes out, but I have thoroughly enjoyed both of them!!
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