I'm a Bella?!?!?!?! Are you for real?

Okay, what the heck?!?! I don't think I'm like Bella, but apparently I am according to this quiz I got from Kar's post:



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You are observant, diplomatic and often aim to please. You are unaware of your

attractiveness and despite being uncomfortable with any form of attention, people enjoy your company. You can be impatient, stubborn and headstrong, but you are true to your word and mature for your age, often taking care of your family and enjoying a good book over chatting with girlfriends on the phone.


Okay...for one...I like attention. I think it just comes with being the youngest. I have no problem speaking in front of large amounts of people. I make a fool of myself at work all the time and there's lots of people there...although that generally isn't intentional...
Hmmm...I am addicted to books and hate the phone, so that is true...Any way...

Random story for y'all: This girl I don't generally get along with at work decided that I need to date this new guy at work. He's an engineer that graduated from BYU...he's a hardcore die hard fan, like all the way BYU fan. I've met few like him. And since he's obviously LDS she decided that we needed to date because apparently that makes him my type. Yeah, No. I don't think so. Of course now he talks to me, and he seems like a pretty cool guy. I decided that if he does ask me out I won't say no. So, we'll see where this goes and I'll keep you updated. It was funny because today he was like "So, you're a big Utah State fan, huh" because I was wearing my USU hoodie at work the other day. Ha ha ha...that was funny. I was like "Yeah, I went to school there my freshman year and loved it. Its a great school" It made me laugh because I know how die hard of a fan he is....oh, it was entertaining.

My Best Friends Wedding

I looked at my watch...again, and then at the line. Why oh why was my stupid best friend so popular that the line would be this long at his wedding reception? Is it bad to want to ditch your best friends wedding? People weren't moving! Why where they talking? Its not like we really want to talk to the bride and groom on their big day...okay, maybe most people do. Another step forward...that's progress...just another thousand left and I can get this stupid awkward moment over with and on with my life....

I guess I could have posted about this before I posted about the institute dance, since I went to my best friends wedding and then the dance, but I forgot.
So, I have a story for you all. Lets all go back about 7 years, okay? Ok...so, its like my first week working at Maceys as a bagger. I'm 16 and its my first job. My brother Richard works there too, but at this point in our lives he didn't like to acknowledge that I was his relative, let alone his little sister. So, I'm on my own in the "getting to know people" department, and suprisingly I am shy when I don't know anyone.
Well, the summer was ending and school had started and I was bagging one night and this guy worked that same shift as I did (along with like 10 other kids, but he is critical to the story) so, I notice his name tag says Craig. So, I start talking to him, and he's pretty cute. He's from my rival high school which is why I had never seen him before. We started talking and pretty much from that moment on I had the biggest crush on him. It was the begining of our really great friendship.
I also started hanging out with this girl named Jen who also knew Craig and the three of us started hanging out when Craig's crazy girlfriend broke up with him. We were always working together and hanging out when we weren't working. It was the best! Except that I was in love with Craig, and so was Jen, and Craig wasn't in love with either of us but still wanted to be friends. It gets a little complicated and I'm not going to go into details too much, but lets just say I know a little bit about unrequited love. So, we are still friends and me and Craig still talk like ALL THE TIME. He is seriously my best friend. Jen has issues with him and kind of fades a little bit (and I honestly can't blame her).
Graduation comes and goes for us and Craig goes on his mission. I go to Logan and end up hanging out with his girlfriend from before his mission. A lot of things happened there that formed a lot of opinions about Craig, his girlfriend, and why I still couldn't get over him. So, Craig comes home from his mission and starts dating his girlfriend again for a little bit, and then they break up. So I'm thinking this is my chance, and we hang out a little bit, but still nothing happens.
Then, God tells me to go on a mission and Craig wrote me a few times, but we're still definitely in the friends category. His ex-girlfriend went on a mission too at the same time...his ex that he never got over. So, I'm thinking that I get home a few months before her...totally enough time to win him over and then she'll come back and it'll be too late. Yeah, didn't happen like that.
I got home from my mission and he and I went on a date...I think? I still don't know what that was...but I'm sick of liking him. Its been 7 LONG years, and its not like I haven't tried to get over him...I have...with no success. And then one morning I woke up and was listening to Good Charlotte and realized that Craig hates Good Charlotte, and actually hates like everything that I do. We'd be miserable together! And then it was like *BAM* I was over him! YAY! Which ended up being a really good thing because said ex-girlfriend came back and they were engaged about 2 or 3 months later and got married last Friday.
Really long explanation, sorry, hope you're still here reading because now to the point: I used to be able to talk to Craig about anything and everything. I feel like I lost my best friend. And it sucked at his wedding because he told me how we totally needed to stay in touch and he still wanted to know what was going on with me.....yeah...no. I don't think so. I guess I'm weird that way...the whole he's married thing...I can't get past that. Plus, its not like we've even kept in touch since before this summer. So, it was WEIRD to say the least. But, its all good because I really am over him and that was the greatest feeling when I went to the reception....not wishing it was me. I was, and still am, happy for them. I wish them every happiness in the world.

Shall We Dance?

The music pumped out a quick beat that was easy to dance to...the room felt like Raleigh in the heat of August just after a rainstorm. I looked around at all the people squished together around me like we were sardines. Then I saw him...again. I had seen him several times that night, he was tall, and had great brown eyes. He pulled off the preppie look well, especially with his faux-hawk. Just then, as luck would have it a slow song started. Our eyes met and he walked towards me....and then he walked past me and asked the girl behind me to dance.

Okay...so I have seen the above done before. I kinda like it... a little blip from my own head at a moment in my real life. I'll see if I like it enough to continue...
Any way...back to the real subject of today...Institute dances. I know that you are DYING to know how it went. Even if most of you didn't know I even went to a dance on Friday night. Well, I remembered why I kind of have issues with them these days. I feel kind of old. I know, I know, I'm not old, I'm only 23, but all the guys there seem like they either haven't gone on their missions yet, or are just back from them. So, all the guys are past my 1 1/2 year limit I have set. (I won't date a guy more than a year and a half younger than me.)
And, I am SUPER self concious about my dancing. I feel like an idiot a lot of times, like I can't dance (because I truly believe that I can't dance). So, now there really is no point for me to go to the institute dances.
It was okay. I mean I danced with a few guys that were pretty cute. But no guys I'd want to date, and really, that's the reason they have those dances. But, over all it was fun. I probably won't go to another one unless I am REALLY bored...but probably not.

Randomness

Amy got me with this one. So, y'all want to know 7 random things about me, eh? Well...where to begin...

#1: I was afraid of the dark until I was 15 years old. Yep, night time scared me to death. I was afraid Mr. Boogety, or something similar would come get me. And people wonder why I hate scary movies... I remember one of my first weeks in college B told me like the whole plot to a pretty scary movie, and I couldn't sleep at all that night; and I didn't even watch it! Yeah, I have a VERY active imagination. Fortunately night time doesn't freak me out as bad, but I still don't like dark places. I am a lover of light.

#2: As a kid I always wanted to be a dancer. Unfortunately for me, I have the build of a football player, so that career option was out before it was ever a real possibility. I still dream about being a dancer sometimes, but I have zero coordination, so that wouldn't really work, would it...

#3: I dream almost every night. I guess a lot of people don't dream every night and remember it. Almost every morning on my mission I would wake up and after praying I would say, "Holy cow I had the weirdest dream last night" I would write letters to my friends and they'd write back wanting to know about my dreams. My companions still ask me if I am dreaming nightly, and I still do. Last night I dreamed that I was supposed to go on this blind date with this really attractive guy, but I ended up not going because I was a secret agent and I had to go chase this bad guy and we ended up in this alley and the guy shot me and I woke up....crazy, huh.

#4: I own a Twilight shirt. It says "Cullen 13" on the back. Me and Fort both have them. Mine is brown and hers is blue. We are going to wear them when we go see the movie...maybe. It depends on how brave we actually feel like being that day. I am generally the one making fun of people who do that, so I don't know if we will or not.

#5: The only time I don't talk is when I'm not comfortable...or really really tired. I am a talker, as you all know. At work when I started I didn't talk for a while and they told me recently they had no idea I was such a talker because I was so darn quiet!

#6: I carry a notebook with me at all times. Some of you already knew this, but I always, always, ALWAYS have a notebook with me in case I get an epiphany or something about a story idea, or a scene for my book. Comes in handy when I'm in the middle of History trying to stay awake and a thought hits me like a brick wall.

#7: I am in love with a fictional character of my own imagining. His name is Jason Tyde. I posted the beginning of his story a few days ago. He is a pretty amazing guy and no one will ever know that quite like me....to bad he is FICTIONAL... dang.

Okay, now its time for the lucky winners! I am going to tag B, Nat, and Kar-if y'all want to. I won't be offended if you don't want to!!

TAG!! I'm it!

Well, Kar tagged me with this one, here:

"This blog invests and believes, the proximity. [meaning, that blogging makes us 'close' -being close through proxy]. They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize, and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut, or that they propagate? Then let’s try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers that in turn must make the same thing and put this text."

And everyone seems to translate the translation, and I liked Nat's the best about all the coolness...go check it out. And, since I don't really know a ton of people in the blogosphere out here, I'm just going to talk about y'all and why I think you're cool!

B: Okay, so I give major props to B for even having a blog, and also because his blogs are random and make me laugh like all the time!

Nat: I love her blogs about life as a mom with four kids. I especially like Nat's blog because I live far away and I feel more connected with their fam through her blog!

Amy: Has been my sister-in-law the longest and I feel that we are pretty tight. I love her blog because she has the neatest stories about her kids and the funny/random things they do!

Kar: I love how she writes about life. Everything is an adventure, even if you never leave the house! That is an amazing thing to do, make EVERYTHING interesting.

Kelly: Is just cool, all the way around, and she has the funniest videos of Jack, who is one of the funniest/cutest little boys! (disclaimer: I am not picking favorites, I love all my neices and nephews equally)

And, anyone else I might have missed, you ROCK and I love your blog too. So, now everyone can feel all cool and what not. I know, I'm totally ditching out on the tagging other people, but y'all pretty much have already gotten this one!

Another little bite

Here is another little bit of my story...I'll leave it up for a bit, and if you happen to miss it, just let me know and I'll get it to you! ENJOY!! PS: This is Jason's beginning...the story flips between his and Kyla's point of view...its pretty cool...

If the sun hadn’t been so bright at noon, I could have slept all day. I wanted to. I hated my life, I hated everything about it. Everything I had worked for had been ripped from my hands. Stupid women…nothing but trouble. Every girl I’d ever known had caused me grief in one way or another. I couldn’t stand the sun in my face any longer. I rolled out of bed and saw my phone on the dresser across the room, with the little red light flashing. Great, I thought, $20 says it’s the lawyers…again. This whole divorce was giving me a constant migraine. I flipped my phone open…yep, I was right. Of my five missed calls, three were from the lawyers, and the other two were from my assistant down in LA. I was trying hard to avoid her, but she was persistent. Pretty soon she’d be having my agent calling, and I really didn’t want to talk to Phil.

Just then, my phone went off again. Fabulous, just the person I didn’t want to talk to. “Hey Phil” I said trying not to let the annoyance come through in my voice just yet. “Jason, where are you? You were supposed to be in LA two hours ago! Do you have any idea what time it is?!?!?!” Obviously I didn’t…either that or I didn’t care because I was obviously still in Sumerland at my beach house avoiding the world. I was doing a pretty good job at it too. I finally glanced at the clock to see what the exact time was. “Well Phil, its about 12:26 PM, and I’m guessing this isn’t just a social call.” I guess I should be nicer…I mean I’m pretty sure one of these days Phil is going to have a heart attack and it will probably be my fault. We both knew that I was supposed to be in LA right now, and we both also knew I wasn’t going to make it. “Jason, these meetings are important. If you want more work, you have to meet with these directors and producers so they can give you work…you’re not here, you don’t get work.” He tried to sound nice, maybe even respectful. “Well maybe I don’t want to work anymore. Maybe I want to just stay here in Summerland and live out the rest of my life in peace and quiet.” I was walking over to the medicine cabinet and pulled out a little orange bottle and dropped a couple of Zantex into the palm of my hand. I really hated relying on these stupid little pills to get me through the day, but without them I was useless. Nothing seemed to phase me these days.

Any way...let me know what you think...

I think I've lost my mind

Okay, so the WEIRDEST thing of my life happened to me yesterday and I thought I would share it with y'all... so I work at a plant (a foundry, really, but I have found a lot of people don't really know what a foundry is) and its out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by fields, and about a mile away is another plant owned by the same company. So, it can be a little freaky around the plant sometimes because its got huge ceilings and not a ton of light everywhere. Perfect for a "crazy murderer hunting you down" type scene, and I have visualized many different scenarios in my head for a future story that I will work on eventually. So, I was at work yesterday and I was at the copy machine that looks down a hall way that has all the main offices down it, and people were walking down the hall and I saw this cute little girl run down the hall and into Jared's office. I didn't think much of it, I figured maybe it was Jared's kid or something, I didn't know. So, I walk back to my office and I look into Jared's, and its just him sitting at his computer. I glanced around and was half tempted to walk into the room to see her, but she wasn't there. There was no little girl running down the hall...I was the only one that saw her. FREAKY!!!!!!!!!!!
I often feel like I am going a little crazy there because I often think I see things out of the corner of my eye, and that is creepy enough, but this was me looking straight on down the hall, and she was there...only she wasn't. It was weird.