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So, I have acquired a new friend, lets call him Soldier Boy. It was SB's birthday this week and I had this BRILLIANT idea of the perfect cake for him, so I made it, what do you think?










Yeah, so when SB saw the cake, he said it was the coolest cake he'd ever seen. I had SO much fun making this cake. I don't know if you can see it too well, but the little blue and green things sticking up a little bit out the the cake are candles that when lit were little fires all over the enemy territory. GENIUS. This is one of my favorite cakes, even though it is totally a guys cake, nothing girly on this one. But that's okay because I like knowing that I can make more than just girly cakes! 

checkpoint

So, as I have previously mentioned, I am working on a bunch of goals this summer. I really don't enjoy running that much and I have found I have a hard time motivating myself to do it. However, I rediscovered that I LOVE bike riding, and I think my legs are going to be super sore tomorrow from all the bike riding I did today, but I remember why I love it so much! I will be riding my bike much more often for the rest of the summer, and then when winter comes again I will buck up and go back to running so I can run a 5k by the end of the year.
    I feel really good today. I feel like I am one step closer to my dreams. I have felt really close to the spirit lately, like He is guiding me to the places I need to be and to the people I need to meet. I just feel really really good right now! I LOVE IT! Its amazing! I mean I still have tons of challenges that are right in front of me, but I feel that with my Heavenly Father's help, nothing is impossible. Even if in my head it is still impossible, that doesn't matter. I will exercise faith and trust Him, and somehow everything will work out exactly how it is supposed to. I love it! I just love life right now!

"All that you want is standing right in front of you, all that you need is right here"

Okay, so the freak out of a couple of days ago has successfully passed and I am back to my normal not freaking out self...for the moment. Things are still good...I think. I am trying to stay super positive. The funny thing is, this always happens when I get in this situation, except after my initial freak out I kind of back away and let go. Not this time. There is something there keeping me right where I am. Its kinda crazy, but fun at the same time. Any way, I thought I should just let you know that I am doing fine now.
     I was listening to Onerepublic's newest CD recently and I downloaded a couple of the bonus tracks on itunes and found it while listening to the CD on random. Its called Passsenger, and I am ADDICTED to this song. In the last 5 days I have listened to it like 50 times or something. CRAZY. Its been on repeat in my car and on my ipod and will be on repeat for quite a while, I think. I LOVE this line of the chorus, it goes like this:

"All that you want is standing right in front of you, all that you need is right here." and it just hit me that I all the I want really IS standing right in front of me and all that I need is right here. I LOVE when music speaks to my soul.

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

Okay, so I try to be an optimist, but a lot of times I think I am a pessimist disguised as an optimist that's really a realist. Because I have had my hopes dashed I don't even know how many times I tend to keep things close to my heart and not let people really in.
   I have been faced with good things happening in my life right now, and I am so scared of screwing them up that I don't know how to deal with them. I have these hopes and dreams that I keep close to my heart but if I actually saw them happening in my life I wouldn't know what to do. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, to wake up from a dream and realize that what I thought and hoped was actually happening in my life really isn't happening at all. That's when I'm hardest on myself because I think I'm such an idiot for thinking things would work out exactly how I wanted them to.
   So, I am looking at these new changes with hope and praying that I don't wake up and find them all to be just mere imaginings and dreams of my own creation. I'm holding my breath and praying to my loving Father above for guidance.

Happy Day.

So, its been a little while since I last posted. Um, life has been pretty much the same. Work, work, more work, hanging out a little bit, then more work and stuff. I have been writing a lot more, which is good! I need to get my book done!! HOORAY!!!
       I went and saw a couple of movies this week. First, I saw Eclipse, which I really enjoyed. I think it was the best of the Twilight movies so far. They finally cut Rob Patinson's hair, and gave the actors lessons for their speech impediments they had in the first movie!! HOORAY!!! Plus, there was actual action. Very nice. Over all, I give it a thumbs up. The other movie I saw was The Last Airbender. Such a disappointment. It was horrible. They mispronounced like everything! Uncle was skiny...he's not supposed to be skinny! Zuko's scar was like non existent which is strange because that scar is the main reason why he is the way he is! Plus, it looked like it was filmed in 1992, Sokka wasn't funny-in the TV show, he's the comic relief. He was played by the guy who plays Jasper in the Twilight movies, only in Last Airbender he wasn't pale with weird longish blondish hair. He had dark hair (which I believe is his natural color) and actually had a tan. It was crazy! He looked mildly attractive! So, overall I give Last Airbender a thumbs down. Don't pay more than a dollar to see it. Hopefully they make a 2nd one (this movie only covered the first of three seasons of the TV show) but hopefully they will get a different director. M. Night Shamylan has never been a favorite of mine, and this is why. He takes awesome stories and turns them into crap.
    Any way, other than that I have been busy working, and not sleeping, so now I am incredibly sleep deprived and I am going to go to bed now so I can sleep!! HOORAY!!!