Snip Snip Snippet for you!

Okay, so this is another snippet of my ever growing book. This is where Kyla meets Jason post accident on the beach. She's not actually been alone in weeks because her mom has been worried and hovering over her since the hospital, so she convinces her friend, Ashley, to take her to Ashley's house so she can go for a walk alone on the beach. It takes some convincing, but Ashley finally agrees and this is what happens next:

Once I was safely away from Ashley’s view, I let a tear escape my eye and fall to the ground. I knew there was a wave of emotion dying to be released, but I held it at bay, as I had for a few weeks now. The sound of the ocean waves coming in and back out brought peace to my soul. I didn’t care where I went; I just wandered the beach until I was finally so tired that I just sat down. I was close enough to let the waves wash over my toes. I looked around to make sure I was alone, and finally opened the flood gates and let all the emotion I had hid these last few weeks come rushing over me.

I replayed my last memory of Jake over and over again. His face, that look in his eye when he told me he’d be alright, and to let him go. Being in his arms that last time, even if it wasn’t real it felt like it to me; and that was enough. I was so lost in my own thoughts I didn’t notice the changing tide until a wave taller than me came crashing down over me soaking me from head to toe. I heard my name…it sounded like Jake, and then another wave came in. I was brought abruptly back to reality and tried to stand, but the waves were pulling me deeper into the water. I saw someone walking quickly towards me as I struggled to break free of the water’s grasp. I tried to stand and slipped in the attempt, but didn’t splash back down like I was supposed to. I turned my head back to see who had caught me. He looked so familiar, but I couldn’t put my finger on how.

“Are you alright?” It was the voice I had heard earlier, calling my name. It wasn’t Jakes voice, it was his. Funny how similar they had sounded at the time, but now it was clearly not Jake’s voice. He was tall, over 6 feet tall, I’d guess. His hair was dark, almost black and cut very short; but his eyes were a crisp blue. As blue as the ocean that now surrounded me. He reached down and picked me up as if I weighed nothing and carried me further in away from the water. Once he put me down I turned to face him,

“I’m okay. Thanks for your help.” I started ringing out my hair and my clothes.

“You should really be more careful out here. The tide changes quick and if you’re not careful it will pull right out there, and then I’d have to go for a swim which I don’t really mind doing…if I’m planning on getting wet.” He said with a smirk. Even though he was smiling, it wasn’t reaching his eyes. I could see a sadness there that went deep.

“I’ll remember that. I’m Kyla, by the way.” I held my hand out to shake his. He took it and said, “Nice to meet you, Kyla. I’m Jason” I still couldn’t put my finger on why he looked so familiar. It was going to drive me crazy if I didn’t ask him, so I did.

“I realize this may sound silly, or maybe even crazy, but you look so familiar and I can’t put my finger on how I know you…have we met before?” He looked at me for a minute and then started laughing. I just stood there wondering what was apparently so funny.

“I’m sorry, I just don’t usually get that question very often. Usually there’s screaming, followed by running, and more screaming…my last name is Tyde. I’m Jason Tyde.” OH. Light bulb turns on and of course I know who he is. Who feels like an even bigger idiot? Me. Not only do I nearly get washed away, but then I don’t even recognize People Magazine’s Sexiest Man Alive last year….wow. I’m a loser.

“Oh gosh. Wow, I feel really stupid right now. Of course I know who you are. I’ve seen like all of your movies.” If my face wasn’t already red from the tears and the near death experience, it was now. Even if it was red before, it was a deeper red now. He just laughed again.

“Honestly, Kyla, its really nice not to be recognized right away. All the screaming and the running gets old fast. So, thank you for not making such a big deal out of meeting me.”

All Things Considered...

I was thinking a lot about life the other day. I don't know when I really found time to think, but I did and I was thinking about all the good things in life. Heaven knows we spend enough time on the bad, so I decided to just think about the good, and I was thinking of the things I am grateful for.

I am grateful for my family. Most of you who read this would fall in that category. I am so grateful for you!!! I would not be the person I am today without my family. Siblings, extended family, family I decided should be my family, etc.. I know when I am having a rough day that there will always be someone I can call to lift me up when I need it. I mentioned my dream in my last post and checked my e-mail today and had 3 comments of support. You just made my day! THANK YOU!!

I am grateful for my friends. I feel like I am always gaining and losing friends, but a select few have managed to stay my friend for some years now. I don't know what I would do without my friends. The real and true ones, you know...the ones who have proven true. I can't even count the number of times I have been shafted or hurt by those who said they were my friend. I guess its because I am always trying to see the good in people. But those friends I have kept have been the greatest.

I am grateful for school, even if I do hate it right now. I am very blessed to be able to attend a university were I can become anything I want to be. How many people really have that opportunity?

I am grateful for the gospel and how much the Lord has done for me. A year and a half is a sacrifice, but I feel that I received more blessings from going than the sacrifice it was to go. I love talking about the gospel, its one of my most favorite things, and I think its because I start and end my day in prayer...and I spend like all day talking to my Father in Heaven. I never imagined I would feel close to Him like I do now.

I am grateful for music. There is nothing that gets me in the right mood to finish a chapter of writing, or get me out of bed in the morning, or put me in the right mood to actually make it through 8 hours of class every other day.

You know, all things considered...I've got a lot of things. I think its super easy to look at all the crappy things going on in our lives, but it takes time to remember the blessings we have. At least, that's how it is for me. I tend to dwell on the negative in my mind and then I wonder why things always look gloomy. But really, I've got a lot going for me!

The Goal

So, I have decided to take the summer off from school and work on my writing. I have a new goal! I want to have the first draft of my book finished in 6 months and work on getting it published.
I know its going to be super hard, but its my goal and its something I've always dreamed of doing, but never thought I'd have the drive to accomplish it. And, not that I have it finished now, but I'm actually working at it. I have about 100 pages now and I know that if I can keep up with my current pace I will be able to accomplish my goal!

I heart SPRING!!! not Tex....

Even though it is still pretty cold AND snowed on Monday, that's okay...today was pretty and warm! This has been a fun week...other than one small little thing that kinda got to me...yeah...here's a story for you:

I have a friend. When I met him, we all called him Tex because he's from Texas. He was dating my friend at the time and she and I became best friends. Her name is Fort because she's from Fort Collins. A year or so after we all became friends Tex moved back to Utah from Texas and he and I started hanging out a lot and became really good friends. Then he went on his mission and a little more than a year later I went on mine! So, we wrote occasionally on the missions and he came back and was dating my friend again. I thought they were a great couple. But, it didn't last and they broke up. Lucky for me, though, I was never put in the middle, so I still maintained both my best friends!
So, every once in a while me and Tex do hang out, whenever we are in the same city at the same time-which isn't all that often since he's in Logan and I'm down here-but its good times when we do hang out. Well, this past week a lot of my friends have been asking me if I have feelings for Tex...where did all this come from? I haven't seen him since our birthdays (his is the day before mine). Well, he was down for spring break so we went to lunch and that day at school one of my friends from class (who has never met Tex and really hasn't heard a lot about him because I don't really talk about him all that much) asks me if I have feelings for him. I tell her no and that night I call Fort and tell her how random it is and she says "So, do you have feelings for him? I mean its cool if you do" I was shocked and surprised. She of all people is supposed to know that me and Tex are just friends! So, to set the record straight: Tex is just a friend. I don't have feelings for him other than friendship. He's an awesome friend and I do love hanging out with him. But I don't think I could ever date him. So there you go. End of story. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm glad you all understand.

And in memory of Logan, B...this one is for you:

Crash and BURN!!!!

Yeah, that's me today...crashin' and burnin'...I HATE tests. I've never been a good test taker. EVER. And today totally showed it. I studied a lot for my biology test and thought I was pretty well prepared to take it...ha ha ha...apparently I don't know the difference between mitosis and miosis and I know that B, Mike, and Rich can talk circles around me when it comes to it, but I have never been too keen at understanding Biology and today's test totally proved it. If I get a C in the class I'm throwing a huge party.
Then, I went to go take me Spanish oral exam...so not wanting to go to that one because I really don't speak Spanish all that well. I still am horrible at conjegating, especially in ther preterite. Oh, it was not good. But, I feel that it went better than could be expected. My teacher said I am very creative in my answers, I just need to work on talking in the right tense. Apparently not everything happens in the past (who knew?) ha ha ha, but he also showed me my test score from my last test. The sad thing is that I felt I'd actually done okay on that one...that I'd get a fairly decent score...boy was I wrong! It was no bueno. Mi espanol es muy muy malo! Pero, mi profesor es muy simpatico. But yeah, it was terrible. Fortunately, I went to my brothers house and we had chocolate pudding (which I will blog about later) and made everything better...until I go take my Astronomy test tomorrow! ICK!!! I hate tests in school. Whoever invented them should be shot!